Eruch Jessawalla - Drop all Expectations
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Speed and they are all there and people are attracted to the person and they follow him not knowing where they are going to the hood jam and the Elders of the tongues and then what happened with this crowd and with this thing and with this music and all that children are attracted. So the parents are much Disturbed and all that the elders are disturbed because of the road guns blocking of the road traffic and all that sort of thing wherever they went and Lucknow is the capital is a big city.
So the thought of it and see what is this? Who is this man? That takes the lead? Why should he be like that?
See some of them said that you look we have heard that he is a man who's considered to be a perfect one. So, how can he be? Perfect when this community is not possible in this and that so dissension in the community in the society.
So when The Descent dissension is there then they want to take a case. Try try. Let us see we can denounce him if he's not that and week. I will praise him if he is so so the only test is now what should we do? He must be all-knowing then you must know so what they did was this is Barber tells us the story mind. So he said this man this perfect one master, of course his usual way. So these Elders held a meeting in the hall musical hall. Whatever it be.
Community Hall and they came to the decision that we leave the matter in the hands of the elders and whatever they decide will we accept the decision, but it is left to them to test the test case so they came upon this plan that we should test this person how we should we test, you know, they're the people are pay and even the lads look like girls teenagers. They are fairly complex and all that so
So the selected boy two boys the selected not boys. He needles so one was dressed in the bridegroom's dress and the other was given the bright streets and these Elders incited their parents and they also consults they followed the perfect master and when the perfect match is settled down, you know used to go walk about the streets and all that someone you would settle down somewhere on the curb and all that.
That was not naturally all sit down. So they also very meekly and lovingly shyly the bridegroom and the bride approach and the stand before Shams King. So I see the bride has that Veil and all that. So they approached and said so he says Citta they said down the elders with Gray beard and all that. They are there also, they are watching now because they
Are the ones were examining testing they also settle down.
So the bridegroom has been tutored by them Master says were you what happened? You got married?
As if he didn't tell no.
So the bridegroom says very shy Lisa's. Yes. We are just married and we have come to take your blessings.
Blessings for what? Do you want blessing? You're married. You're happy. What blessings you want?
So this is you know, we'd love to have a Bonnie son first really he says real so yes master you'd love to have it. So then this is what does she want? This is just passed so master inquires from her saying the view really wanted one. Do you really want?
Yes master she says you seek are you really serious you want my blessing you're blessed they said yes, you're blessed.
And if very Reverend shall bow down lock bag and everything the comely sure enough he is a pseudo person. He should be driven out of the place. That's how it was. How is it possible for such a thing to happen? He doesn't know if he were the perfect one. He would have known you see that they are fooling him in all that so well, they go.
And they hold another meeting public meeting is held and they came to the decision that he is a false master has nothing to do. He doesn't know anything about it. So that's however, and in the meantime, no, Baba give Baba gives us a little hints here and there little digression. So while all this is going on there is Talk of the Town about him because of the community feelings there. So there is a wrestler now, we are digressing from the story and this is Baba in sir.
Said that so there is wrestling bout in North India. They result in to see as because one party wrestler was the champion and he had won all of the Champions you see and there was a parade of this the Garland and all that. He's walking, you know, you began to the hand because the muscles are so big he's walking like that Baba act next part. You see that's what I am recalling me. So is walking
As I said, he has a Following also of the wrestlers who applauded him in all that backed him up. So he has also has fallen from opposite direction. The perfect Master is coming with jingling bells and trapping and I'm like, yeah, so this wrestler sees this you see he's passing by a wrestler is passing him for when he passes by he turns to his group. This is yeah. This is the one you know,
He's the one he is unep Hijra. This Hijra is he has a following this Hijra pointing at him.
So if Master doesn't care he walks by with all his following its master stops at the other end and turns back and this man is stationed there wherever he is with his finger pointing now in are so he turns back the master and says, I believe you are a wrestler your champion of all the wrestlers today. Well, you're pointed at me haven't you got the strength in your finger or in your arm to put yourself down?
You are the champion wrestler. So it was this stuck in the air. He couldn't get put in for his arm Downs. Just so Baba gave us a little glimpse of his divinity uses. The such things are their Community feelings are there that they should be asked you should be ousted and here there he has demonstrated little little giving given an inkling to his divinity and all that. Of course the wrestler when they're beg his pardon.
This is but be brave. This is not the sign of strength to point at me.
So, of course then it was all right, so there is now a mixed feeling in the community. They want to denounce him totally and here they are seen this so there is a feeling so days are passing by months are passing by and nothing no drastic step is taken in the meantime, the bride feels that there is something in there is bloated feeling is there is no more bride. Of course. The boy is there he feels that there is so this is why
You should take him to the doctors. It seems that he has got some gas trouble or something like that feels bloated and all that say taken to the doctors in there is nothing but gas he's a boy, of course, he can't have moved to hold a baby or in himself. Nobody has any idea they are completely forgotten that they are asked for a baby or had done anything of that sort. They all that was Grand Kinder Minds that was the test. They want to denounce. That's all.
So here is very uneasy. He does not know what to do and he's complaining to his parents and he says you told me to do this and I feel very uneasy inside and I have a different feeling. I don't know what it is. I feel nervous and something is inside me. I don't know gradually his change in the chemistry. Yeah, and at the fifth month, it is found that this is a woman is not pregnant.
It's a shock to the parents and shop today arrogance and all that. What's the matter with this what you do now and there they are the ones he is this girl. I'm sorry. What should we call the boy who is pregnant now and now is a woman so she is most upset with the elders and she says I'm going to denounce you all for instigating me like this to a net that roll like that and they are afraid and this is will do will beg. Pardon, please don't do that.
That sort of thing you see because they are Elders if they will be put to shame like that. They're tasting a man like that. So this is how it was so they all again congregate the again going to be the same way. And now, you know more dressed in a woman's vesa thing. Although she is a woman now she has to dress as a man and they are they are all going there.
Now this time Baba says perfect Master sometimes the Premiership he wouldn't want to sit down. He made them roam about following. These here has all the time. They are playing the music and people are seeing public seeing these Elders following the recession you see behind them. So yeah. Yeah, so because he had come in order to uplift the community. Okay, we are
Simple thing. So what happened you can I can we take five more minutes. So what he'll tell them that we are coming five minutes. So what happened is that they eventually settles down and they come and beg pardon.
This is what I asked you soft in there. Are you serious about it? And they said yes, whatever has happened. We plead guilty. We beg your pardon. We are come to get remotes. Please forgive us.
This is one small word is given I can't be true. I can never do that heaven and Earth shall we words will never pay the blessings are they? It's not in my hands. But if my people were to pray to the Lord and beseech the Lord surely he will hear a dirty. So you beseech them. So he difficulty they accepted.
Is and they said Apple the prey to the perfect masseuses believe this youngster of this golden gradually. So such are the things. This is a perfect Master can be a union
Voices and beautiful and so many books that were read to rather Marvel class books and the wolves and so it became an exact voice as well. So this is our chief listen spreads and this is the time and he likes it like that. So the token Trilogy Lord of the Rings The Lord of the Rings was made out to be
First and then after a few years again, he won every word. I mean and you don't disagree the truth and you don't go ahead by yourself as he was coming. You should people bother and you read it and it may be just 10 minutes. He wants that reading done maybe two hours, but then I needed to talk acknowledged how the next time maybe the same day or maybe the next day and I say father had a habit of making a stop at the
My heart and you wonder what's going to happen Michelle of wonder if that cannot be because you could
That's why I had my charm. My father would say hearing to be unknowing the all-knowing appearing to be unknowing. That's the familiar a special Father's Day.
And I always be the problem only the happy ending because Baba story had a happy ending and his wife says don't worry about
If you did enjoy being yet atmosphere and do dance those songs of devotion and all that. It went flat likewise. There are pilgrims who come with hate expecting that well, they have heard from others. That such is the thing. The feelings are arouse our hearts. You see go out to Baba and we feel as if you see like iron filings get stuck to the tombstone and this and that all sorts of things are
And when they come over here, they have expectations that I have been aroused by the people there. This is what we don't feel anything what has happened to us something wrong with us something wrong with the reporting and what why is it like that but those who have reported they cannot be telling the lie, and those who are not experiencing anything. They are not telling lies why?
Is it like that?
Instagram the different places know why is it like that?
Why is it like that the mind what is the mind gets the expectation and he blocks Maybe?
If you come not expect anything else different structure coming with expected. Yeah, so should we do not expect that means it's a simple
Yeah expect something good. Is it a sin? Yeah, I mean it might be a my God. Anything is a synthesis construe what you've really we expected good things from them, but we felt that well we sinned in extracting but he said yourself up for disappointment. Yeah, that's a sin and that's it.
It is.
You know Roger Stevens remember him? He's an artist. Yeah. Yeah, and he likes to be very dramatically. So the before I had gone to the center in Myrtle Beach for the first time I said Roger, what's it like at the center? You hadn't visited I hadn't visited. He said this is the center. It's beautiful.
Happens he says everybody's happy and they and they dance down the past and when anyone sees each other they always hug and they say J bother. Oh my God, everyone knows each other without anybody saying anything and my God, this is done believe I wasn't even sure I wanted to go and he said and the trees he says they all been he also embrace you.
Every shell on Bob is beachhead father's face in it. So finally, I'm going to the first time I should have known better. I went down to the beach and I would look at it all the shells but none of them had been lovers must have taken him. God has saved you.
No, it is like that.
Roger must be saying the same. He said that he may have felt it Ernest is how he painted it? Yeah.
It's really nice. We know of one person who had bobbins. He said well, I'm at mayor van. Yeah so long
We were sometimes it doesn't same thing with me my mother admonish me for not being in presence of Baba. I was a student in college.
We're not in college high school. Why will you not kill he was waiting for you. You said I had my game. Do you realize who is he? Do you have any idea about it? He's arrestor coming amidst such as so hot. It is your as well. Alright, then reap reap your reward by saying. So what?
It is like that see you know, why because my heart was set on something else someone else at the time mother's heart was set on him. So she said this and she experienced that way. I experience it differently. So it is always like that but the best thing is
Drop all expectations
Just come for the sake of coming to brushing teeth.
Allowing him to take charge of you.
If you were to be involved in like one thing remember one thing I made II may not be the now I recall he didn't like us to be on the things sitting on the fence on the fence. He would say either jump in the air even and play the game you get out from me remember that. This is one of the tenants on the Eightfold Path.
Buddha's Eightfold Path what as a 12 volt battery many that one of them is one of them not to be indecisive the Zen Buddhist say if you're gonna walk walk if you're gonna sit sit, but whatever you do, don't Wobble Bobble give us a figure according to this.
It's environments is don't be on the fence sitting on the ground. I don't like you people watching us come inside and join get out from here.
No intrusion, but you're welcome. You follow what he need don't hesitate don't intrude, but you're welcome ignition is not restricted not restrictive. We have put the board admission restrictive.
Tu Mera saath to him it's not history.
Yes.
Not being able to yeah, that's what he's here about him. But he says I am having to go out but when you are coming here, they try to see what it is all about and all that.
He is so anxious. He's in such great Russian towards us that he wants us to rush to him. There's no time for indecision hesitations be here or be anywhere else where you can have me there, too.
If you are a Jesus freak out for Jesus and I'm there. But if you are Jesus speaking to trying to come and watch his his let me see what it was all about them. Maybe I might join them. Maybe I've made a return over there or something. No, he doesn't want that. That's what he meant trade.
When Bob has Last Visit to no, sorry, they come from Gujarat State the state adjoining to the state of Maharashtra. There is the state called Gujarat and they come from the state of Gujarat this downward city is now sorry and now sorry is the stronghold of all the rest in Orthodoxy.
The arrests increased get manufacture there. You see they are dumped in different temples of the country and even abroad so they are all come from now. Sorry sudha can all that sorted. That is Babas Last Visit to knock. Sorry. He will be called. Yeah. What happened? Which year was that 29th, January?
1956 his first visit was 1923 and 32 in second. Last visit was 56 29th, January Bob arrived at no sorry station.
God looks at me and then you can imagine we have come. So what happened is they anticipated in the Rival Bob has arrived but in anticipation of his arrival, they had constructed a huge awning at Med Cottage. He got is named after barber in the city the town they had fixed the time for Baba.
That should be the bothered arrived at the morning. So it is good that it takes race in lunch and all that's in the new. Yeah afternoon at about three o'clock three to five two hours. There are many who had come for taking the action and because of the crowd which is not possible if thing is that they come they're not to hear him lecture or anything. He silent so personal touches this
And the Personal Touch actually each one does not expect that he would Shake hand or do this or do that but the catch is transferred through something that he bestows upon the other and best way of transferring the touch physical to as the Personal Touch is through the through a thing called Prasad the gift from God to man. It's like that so they had placed Prasad a for Bobbitt this to do so
Because of the crowd naturally single-file filing past the channels are two hours only three to five it won't be sufficient. So he started Distributing them one line was ladies one was men. So they would come Line pass by like that. Listen to each one would be given this like that all the time. It's like Pistons working here then so side by side.
And while he bobbled Distributing the Prasad the atmosphere was charged with devotional songs, and there is a famous bar single radio single. He is known as was known as but you by Sony who passed recently passed away. She died. She was Ababa lover on 6 December. He has created that great song called Gaffney why Elizabeth company value transmit?
Russian was three. Three two by two hours such five to five bubbles asking. What is the time now was asking she really so he was holding that pretzel finger from the Distributing. Now, I hate him. Now. This is that you keep that thing this and take a round of the of the KU campus. Yeah. So where the people are gathered?
What about the other day total? Still tapping it under Saddam Brett mcgurk social gun control. So he says that when he naturally Barba told him to go and just take a strong. So while he clever kept the thing there and starting the wrong he went behind the crowd who were under that vast owning that will spread out. So what he notices that a youngster there.
I was trying to like the clock set by Set Fire to the whole thing. So as soon as he saw him just setting the fire. He was setting the fire barcia's because I told you it's a stronghold of the rarest in this he said that time they are the youngsters were incited by some.
Orthodox Elder is created Angie who was the uncle of one of the closest disciples. Ababa is by name ninja Misty and really missing family that here they are all related to them. So he was a major in the Army. He was one of the most formidable an antagonist 12 the ministry of so, they never bothered go to give that shrink any place, especially where these arrests in Congress would be he go there and you know,
Pitchers against God and incite the fury, so he had been there prior to having heard. He will keep a record of where he's going because after that event in advance and inside had incited them, that's what he said. So then what happened the time postfix three to five it was announced that five o'clock session is over. So then Baba was driven from the they were told that if they want to have they can come to the house.
Madhouse, but that should so then they Baba continue giving that's ended after from the public space than even there. So the public doesn't program and budget programs continued are instead of under the awning, which was just nearby
And program contributed at 10 o'clock in the night people came in to benefit a bob has presence.
Because gone there apart from those who had accompanied by other people by the devotees from Bombay had also taken advantage because bomb there now sigh not too far away. So they also took advantage of Baba's visit. They said they had come from Bombay. So two for them nestled in addition to for us Bob and people who were the barbecue people they are prepared food for them. It's horrifying.
So what had happened was that Baba had promised them that you pay a visit to their no sorry Center, I'll tell me about no sorry Center. So because of the program the delaying the program and all that not fun - yeah at 10 o'clock in the night and all that and because of the situation that was created by the Russian Community people's emotions over there. So he said that at five o'clock in the morning. He said come on, let's go to the Centre because I have promised myself to visit the center. I couldn't go.
Tonight let's go now sorry arrived at the center by six o'clock in the morning. Yes interval. So that people where did the devotees who were there who were conducting the center of his they were all gathered their father was there with them for about half an hour saying something performed his RT toddlers our team in you know, what art is what is it? Crazy? Yeah.
Glorifying the Lord spontaneous expression of glory to the Lord. Yeah, then what happened happened is at 8 8 o'clock. There's a train to go to another station for bajwa. We're also a devotee of our true disciple of babubhai named Harry Kaka whose books are printed version boots written many songs on Bob.
So by the wanted to go visit to his day his devotee his love of brother. There was a transport Arrangement was here bubbles me to sit in the car. It was all decorating all and Bob has driven procession to the place here. They are also people
Advantage of advantage
Howard has come happened was when Barbara was in no, sorry. So these arches are made to sit on the wall opposite mere house. He's Russians the Russian boys and they were shouting simultaneously that to me Baba get to never get too nervous. So whole Doctor purusa Who was naturally one of the chief workers and these people social bharucha was a bit short tempered in
He was so excited. So he says he wanted to do something. He says you just keep quiet valises achieved after all they're taking my name whether it be death. I am not dying. I'm not taking birth after all at least they take my name. So why are you excited on the contrary be happy that this is an excuse for them to take my name?
Then then what happened after program at bajwa then they had a fulfill the whole program that was organized in all that nicely after food and all that they returned and they came to Baroda station. They said that let the car be there he would like to take around a big city of them sack with him, but went out.
Came back to the station and that he proceeded. Okay, then we went to Surah from this, uh become part of my family that came out. That was the last entry.
So that was the last
That of gobble lover. That's great singer. Oh game of those the one that was instigating the boys to I've heard a story where that once happened where the boys were converted at the end. And yeah, she look on wasn't but he himself got converted me see by his nephew who was closely related to the daughter of this man and he eventually
He talked about Barbara last about more information about Bob and all that. He didn't come to Baba didn't see baba. But he died peacefully. Yeah change of heart to his weed abandoning a change of heart replace it with one that says those boys who were who were instigated they came to him because he is the worship worker there always they said that next time he called Baba will be the volunteers to assist.
It happens like that. Same thing happened in Northern India is where Bob Avengers which is now the stronghold of ours we will call it at no ranga. There's a place called no longer and therefore it when he went of course, he wasn't around he's visiting a place now. He is being rich. They the great enthusiasm. They are expecting again expectations coming into
Expectations
So when they are prepared and they are ready to receive and all that and they are gone.
To the next station from where he is to be escorted and brought to their tongue. In the meantime what happened. There were some adversaries over there is the Canal area is home where irrigation is done through canals. So they broke the canals and let the water sprayed where the Reduction Program was to be held knotted it flooded the whole place. So when Bob became even Bob has brought his cotton bro, man was a started what had happened how to
How to take Baba this
He was so sad. So frustrated and disappointed he cried loudly and went and offices what to me. Why why should you do that? Does it mean that we should enter my I should put my footsteps. They're beyond this water here. Also, we can gather together here. You have me why you feel disappointed. I will come again.
I'll come again to the place where you have decided. I'll come don't worry. And of course he changed the whole atmosphere and made them laugh and all of the things you will very humanely as possible. So we are when you try to kill others who see his close ones and sure enough the one who had done the damage in a year's time.
He came to him came to the one who wanted to receive other pieces do anything that call him.
And he every year and he takes the leading part in holding this big ferrets. He's the same one.
So such setbacks are important is just as Baba said Peter denied the Lord Lord wasn't important enough that he could Peter who loved him so much would allow him to deny like that.
Did not Jesus loved Peter. Did he not call that he is Rock. He's my right hand or whatever you call it. And why did you allow him to deny even photo that he did? Why did you do that? Is this the sign of the Beloved treats his lover like that everything evidently it is done with a greater purpose.
A greater blessing is in store for people because of the denial. He got the greater Vigor and push to do is push for Ministry after Jesus passed away.
I did not deny it. He would have been complacent and taken it for granted Anderson.
Stirred him deep study. Yeah aroused him.
Made him run because instead of walking through the graveyard.
That's how it is. Such things are good, but we feel so sad about the whole situation and the time Adam nothing to worry about Baba.
If the whole world were to prabha has said there's a message there in the whole world where to believe me and loved me. It wouldn't help enhance my Divinity and if the whole world were to deny me, it won't denounce me at all. Nothing. I am what I am.
Like that
Howard where did you hear about
In the states. Yeah, he met with two automobile accidents, you know that while in the states and one in India.
And one of the accidents he
Hurt his left side all of the lips. I second one is right side and so forth chips and Wilson's not hip but left arm and left leg and all that and the right size right hip and and although no stung everything. So I was the driver for the second accident.
And I felt naturally very sad about it has responsibilities and all the
And he wouldn't want to submit himself to the surgery or any other son. So false hip joint had to be created.
But that was not possible also because they what you call another this the ball is there and what is that socket tonight? I had busted and the authority acclaimed by the world. What are you serious? No, that is India, but in in England London the X-ray plates that were sent you see.
So he just had one glance at it and say this man will never walk and the report came and it hurt me a lot. He followed a responsibility like that this chick very the chair is not here select Creator shifted. So that chair was used all the time. He'll be sitting in the chair need lip. You try to walk by crutches and all that in the beginning the first accident.
So that is all right, so
I was very sad about it Baba one decent. Why is it that you feel so sad about the whole thing? Why are you so presumptuous that you consider yourself to be responsible for certificate who are you to be so presumptuous about it?
But I thought that he is comforting me and all that. Naturally. It's logical. Who am I to consider responsible? He is the Lord, how can I go against his will his plan his whatever has been ordained has taken place so good.
Well
Why do you feel about is nothing but see how helpless you are who says I am helpless. I want I'm not helpless and then he said well you think because I can't walk. I'm helpless, but I walk also and show you can create don't feel about it. And what's this every time I come out to suffer like this.
So, well I said well he's doing this little words of comfort to my heart and all the just accepted what he said, you know, I'm not sure enough he did walk. But before he could walk one day what happened is it takes to came into my hand?
And
Somehow or other the book opened. I am a reaping you see a lot of things but dr. William Duncan was there and Francis brother is on was because I think you have heard these babies. So then it is lovers devotees only people who live today the point of reading and they used to call all these things. It is life of Jesus you see
By whose is that remember the author famous author grapes Robert nothing Christ, so
Because lying somewhere I didn't know the person to whom it belonged may have may not have read it. Otherwise, he would have also informed us. So I just picked up because I'm really informed that the name About the Name of Jesus and all that some other in my heart it is there I came to Baba because of Jesus.
So I just opened it King Jesus. Let us open and be okay to open belt was given the description that Jesus also lived.
I was very curious about it what happened and the same thing the hip joint was Rockin.
Did you hear about that? No, you haven't heard about her. So I'll get the paper. Hello another he may not find it.
So then I was so touched by the whole scene that he described over the so I took to bother that passes.
This is you just see it you see it and you feel about why should you feel about it? It's always in my faith. That's what he said. So it was so touching that I typed it out. You see and kept that she'd been staying with me. I didn't know that although I studied life of Jesus, but I don't know he may be but he says about that after a lot of research has written written all that which is inside the book.
Maybe I'll get the it's very interesting from the book came Jesus by Robert Graves you once said that Obama said once you showed this tent and keep it it might be like
It is of Interest YouTube.
Nicanor is the same page same paper that I had used to read out about that after showing / got it typed out in Baba once called called for it trying to tell others about see what it is mentioned. Then of course, it had been typed out asked me to read out. He said keep it he making our know. What is this? This is not important.
Yes, the book King Jesus depicts the life of Jesus. He wants to take the shortcut always the book give him Jesus depicts the life of Jesus and the foundation of the Christian faith from a completely unorthodox standpoint.
Justifying his treatment of the subject. Mr. Graves in his historical commentary States refraining even from a bibliography which would be even more impressive than helpful. I undertake to my readers that every important element in my story is based upon some tradition. However tenuous
And then I have taken more than ordinary pains to verify my historical background. These researches have taken me into uncomfortably remote field nicanor the S seen Watchman of table or bowed before Jesus reverently and asked Lord. Are you prepared to suffer the things that are necessary to royalty?
Are you prepared for The Mooring?
I am prepared it is written behold the servant of the Lord shall prosper. He shall be exalted and praised and lifted High many were astonished Lord at you're doing or his face was marred more than any man and his body likewise the smart shall he sprinkle many nations with his lustral French.
King shall be done before him they shall see what has not been told them and learn what they have not before heard.
On the third day just before Dawn they led him by Torchlight to the heel stone. Formerly the Eastern altar of gilgul or Stone Circle long since vanished Mary of Bethany the daughter of
Jose styled, we oppose a beautiful kinswoman of Mary the mother of Jesus stood at one side of the stone Mary herself stood next to her and presently another woman came out of the darkness of the wood her face shrouded in a shawl and made a third with him, but said nothing.
Nicanor bound the ceremonial Dove Wings to the shoulders of Jesus.
Have no fear great Lord for our God will give his angels charge of you lest you dash your sacred foot against a rock.
As Dawn was breaking Jesus mounted upon the stone and Mary the daughter of cleopas Pride fly Dove of doves fly at that signal the kenites began to Pelt him with stones and sticks and filth until his face was wounded and disfigured and he toppled forward from the stone as the
Winded Icarus falls from heaven in the famous picture by Z axis.
But seven notables of tab or named after the archangels Raphael Gabriel Samuel Michael. Is it is he DQ is Italy qian is it killed honey? Oh and calf rail.
Stood below the stone and caught him before his feet touch the ground.
Now I have read that the great king of Babylon himself would submit during his coronation to be buffeted in the face by a priest and that King Herod when can't crowned King of the Jews underwent the same indignity which was the occasion of his remembering the prophetic buffets father menahem had dealt him at Basra.
But the ritual assault upon King Jesus by the seven notables of table.
It was a more ancient and cruel one by far performed again, after more than a thousand years in fulfillment of Prophecy. They wrestled with him seven against one until they had forced him to kneel with thighs diver cated.
Then the tallest and boldest of them climbed on the stone and left down on him.
And by that act of violence, the marring was completed. Jesus left thigh was pulled put out of joint the head of the bone being displaced and lodged in the muscles of the thigh and his left leg stretched out in spasm and twisted so that thereafter he limped with what is called the sacred lameness. The eighth sign of royalty had been added.
And he uttered No Cry or word of complaint.
Mary the Elder and marry the younger wept for pity but the tall old woman standing beside them. Suddenly Drew back her veil kissed the younger Mary on both cheeks laughed terribly and fled back into the wood.
The kenites took Jesus up tenderly and implored his pardon. They washed his face but Salve on his wounds and toward evening carried him in a litter to a spacious Arbor of Cedar and Fir branches, which had been erected in nicanor is guarding food and a different part in the book.
A shorter passage pilate asks, Jesus kindly you drink no wine. This is the last scene. Um, yeah the whole crucifixion I have a Nazarite vow. I see I will not press you to break it how fortunate that you speak Greek. Either way. You have to go to a good surgeon with that leg of yours. Unless the injury is an old one Hippocrates in his Treatise on dislocations gives precise directions.
Sections for setting the head of the femur back into its socket
If you leave things to Nature who is a notorious bungler a false joint forms and you will suffer agonies from sciatica and your old age by household surgeon will see to it for you. If you care to put yourself in his charge. He is skillful enough the operation may be painful but in the long run it is worth the pain.
However, we can discuss the matter at our Leisure. Meanwhile, I wish to ask you a routine question or two, which perhaps you will not mind answering. I will confine myself to questions of identity.
Say on your name is Jesus it is.
You were born in Bethlehem Bethlehem. Ephrathah in Judea. I was and you are reckoned of the House of David I am.
Tell me are you the Jesus whose name appears on this paper? It is a sheet from the corruption. We're honest census of 22 years ago. I've just had it extracted from the file.
I am that man.
These are the accepts that I took down.
And sure enough after that necessarily he
It was difficult for him to walk and all that. It's impossible to walk. So the lift chair was here. He would bring him here from his room to this place when we would go out on tours also will take the lift shells holding him.
That's how he all that he could do was stand erect with the help of two either side.
One day while he was sitting in a sofa chair comfortably.
He said he's trying to us as if he's trying to be out like that something so he went forward to help him if he wants to stand up and resist him and he got up and started walking.
Yeah, that's all that's see you all these memories are revived.
There is a scene in one of the movies where they're walking in the garden all of a sudden. I don't know the words puka or somebody bends down in Baba sits on his back. Yeah, but you did good not of the that you did when he first started working on The Veranda. He said that
President Hadi of Venus and see in both wanted to do her something for value and she said mom I want to like it the accident in America was on the left side.
Pardon
19th is the left right left side was all the left was injured and the right person in America was the left and the right was India. Yeah, that's important.
Yes.
Come on, I would like to say plenty of something very nice the edges.
And planning a very lovely we made me listen to a tape recording of snowflakes falling. I never knew snowflakes my Assam I knew rain did this was outside the cave of artistic the huntress cave and ICC. I've had that snow was falling and he made me listen to the sound of snow falling and purple eyes twinkle in it.
Yeah, that's something I've never had before and another thing which I've always loved the sound of church bells and even if child I suppose it's all associated with my math and nuns and church bells and all that and this triggers wasn't Marxist Church in Venice.
And it took and I sat down to please him. I was busy. I was going in the office as I came out. He was sitting there and you know be a smile is like lighting up a switch and it's invalid on its face lighted up my face lighted up. You should could I could I show you something today and I said, oh no to myself and then I said, oh, yes, that's imagine. It'll make him happy. This was the other way around it makes me so
A creeper
So, how are ya?
Did you wander was going before? Well, I wanted the 19th was born in 1936 in 1955.
Suddenly became aware of the possibility of a mystical life that you could have a real mystical relationship with the living Christ. I've been somewhat religious in my teenage years, but it was only when I went to college my first year college that I became really aware of this possibility.
And wasn't the Christ to live 2,000 years ago and was dead. But Christ was still alive and somehow I felt he was calling me to have this kind of relationship. This is a 1956 in Washington, DC.
I decided then.
Having been brought up as a Catholic. The only way that I felt I could really follow Christ was become a priest.
And I didn't want to be a priest of the United States as a parish priest that I had seen and known and worked with I felt that I wanted to go to the bar and Mission, so I joined our mission mortar and much to the surprise and disappointment of my family in 1956 Ian seminar.
It's sort of this only actually those the Catholic Family Irish Italian family. It was very disappointed in my position.
Well, they should have been happy on the colony one would think so. But in this case they weren't I was the only son.
The only son totally unexpected came very late in their life and
They expected more than Chris.
So despite the I decided that's really what I have to do. No matter who's there.
And it was a process of eight years of training in which we lived a life very similar to
The schedule that I've seen in the Diaries of Monza we need me no regular daily her REM and what you doing up at 5:00 in the morning hour of meditation and mass and communion and you're in silence all during that time and then you have breakfast in which you are read the lives of the Saints in the gospels where this was in maryknoll seminary in the United States is a fart machine seminar.
And
So I live this I live this life for eight years and
At the end of eight years. I was ordained a priest.
And by that time my family come around, hopefully.
So very happy and proud that I was.
And I was assigned to work in Korea. I went to Korea and I learned the language there and studied the language very hard for the first two years and became very fluent in the language.
By the end of four years. I became very very dissatisfied with my life and I felt like a total.
There's a saying in Hafiz that I read recently.
This is
All you preaches preaching from the pulpit to us all yet on the quiet you answer to a different corner.
And I felt that was me. Although I didn't know how pieces is this.
But I was really on the fence and I felt I couldn't stay there. I had to go one way or the other.
It was a very difficult decision because I had dedicated my entire life to Christ in Bruceton promise.
Totally giving here. I was feeling that I didn't really want to give that I wanted to take it all back.
So it was a very difficult period for me to use in 1968 and I asked to be relieved of my Parish duties in Korea.
And I felt I needed to go home to the United States and get some Council because I wasn't really in him.
Decision
So I went back and after about six months of counseling I came to the realization that well, maybe there were other things I could do with my life and it wasn't a total loss.
And so I petition my superiors and Rome to be released.
The obligate
The obligations of the priesthood and I retired and so that was after a process of about 15 years.
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Eruch Jessawalla - Drop all Expectations
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Speed and they are all there and people are attracted to the person and they follow him not knowing where they are going to the hood jam and the Elders of the tongues and then what happened with this crowd and with this thing and with this music and all that children are attracted. So the parents are much Disturbed and all that the elders are disturbed because of the road guns blocking of the road traffic and all that sort of thing wherever they went and Lucknow is the capital is a big city.
So the thought of it and see what is this? Who is this man? That takes the lead? Why should he be like that?
See some of them said that you look we have heard that he is a man who's considered to be a perfect one. So, how can he be? Perfect when this community is not possible in this and that so dissension in the community in the society.
So when The Descent dissension is there then they want to take a case. Try try. Let us see we can denounce him if he's not that and week. I will praise him if he is so so the only test is now what should we do? He must be all-knowing then you must know so what they did was this is Barber tells us the story mind. So he said this man this perfect one master, of course his usual way. So these Elders held a meeting in the hall musical hall. Whatever it be.
Community Hall and they came to the decision that we leave the matter in the hands of the elders and whatever they decide will we accept the decision, but it is left to them to test the test case so they came upon this plan that we should test this person how we should we test, you know, they're the people are pay and even the lads look like girls teenagers. They are fairly complex and all that so
So the selected boy two boys the selected not boys. He needles so one was dressed in the bridegroom's dress and the other was given the bright streets and these Elders incited their parents and they also consults they followed the perfect master and when the perfect match is settled down, you know used to go walk about the streets and all that someone you would settle down somewhere on the curb and all that.
That was not naturally all sit down. So they also very meekly and lovingly shyly the bridegroom and the bride approach and the stand before Shams King. So I see the bride has that Veil and all that. So they approached and said so he says Citta they said down the elders with Gray beard and all that. They are there also, they are watching now because they
Are the ones were examining testing they also settle down.
So the bridegroom has been tutored by them Master says were you what happened? You got married?
As if he didn't tell no.
So the bridegroom says very shy Lisa's. Yes. We are just married and we have come to take your blessings.
Blessings for what? Do you want blessing? You're married. You're happy. What blessings you want?
So this is you know, we'd love to have a Bonnie son first really he says real so yes master you'd love to have it. So then this is what does she want? This is just passed so master inquires from her saying the view really wanted one. Do you really want?
Yes master she says you seek are you really serious you want my blessing you're blessed they said yes, you're blessed.
And if very Reverend shall bow down lock bag and everything the comely sure enough he is a pseudo person. He should be driven out of the place. That's how it was. How is it possible for such a thing to happen? He doesn't know if he were the perfect one. He would have known you see that they are fooling him in all that so well, they go.
And they hold another meeting public meeting is held and they came to the decision that he is a false master has nothing to do. He doesn't know anything about it. So that's however, and in the meantime, no, Baba give Baba gives us a little hints here and there little digression. So while all this is going on there is Talk of the Town about him because of the community feelings there. So there is a wrestler now, we are digressing from the story and this is Baba in sir.
Said that so there is wrestling bout in North India. They result in to see as because one party wrestler was the champion and he had won all of the Champions you see and there was a parade of this the Garland and all that. He's walking, you know, you began to the hand because the muscles are so big he's walking like that Baba act next part. You see that's what I am recalling me. So is walking
As I said, he has a Following also of the wrestlers who applauded him in all that backed him up. So he has also has fallen from opposite direction. The perfect Master is coming with jingling bells and trapping and I'm like, yeah, so this wrestler sees this you see he's passing by a wrestler is passing him for when he passes by he turns to his group. This is yeah. This is the one you know,
He's the one he is unep Hijra. This Hijra is he has a following this Hijra pointing at him.
So if Master doesn't care he walks by with all his following its master stops at the other end and turns back and this man is stationed there wherever he is with his finger pointing now in are so he turns back the master and says, I believe you are a wrestler your champion of all the wrestlers today. Well, you're pointed at me haven't you got the strength in your finger or in your arm to put yourself down?
You are the champion wrestler. So it was this stuck in the air. He couldn't get put in for his arm Downs. Just so Baba gave us a little glimpse of his divinity uses. The such things are their Community feelings are there that they should be asked you should be ousted and here there he has demonstrated little little giving given an inkling to his divinity and all that. Of course the wrestler when they're beg his pardon.
This is but be brave. This is not the sign of strength to point at me.
So, of course then it was all right, so there is now a mixed feeling in the community. They want to denounce him totally and here they are seen this so there is a feeling so days are passing by months are passing by and nothing no drastic step is taken in the meantime, the bride feels that there is something in there is bloated feeling is there is no more bride. Of course. The boy is there he feels that there is so this is why
You should take him to the doctors. It seems that he has got some gas trouble or something like that feels bloated and all that say taken to the doctors in there is nothing but gas he's a boy, of course, he can't have moved to hold a baby or in himself. Nobody has any idea they are completely forgotten that they are asked for a baby or had done anything of that sort. They all that was Grand Kinder Minds that was the test. They want to denounce. That's all.
So here is very uneasy. He does not know what to do and he's complaining to his parents and he says you told me to do this and I feel very uneasy inside and I have a different feeling. I don't know what it is. I feel nervous and something is inside me. I don't know gradually his change in the chemistry. Yeah, and at the fifth month, it is found that this is a woman is not pregnant.
It's a shock to the parents and shop today arrogance and all that. What's the matter with this what you do now and there they are the ones he is this girl. I'm sorry. What should we call the boy who is pregnant now and now is a woman so she is most upset with the elders and she says I'm going to denounce you all for instigating me like this to a net that roll like that and they are afraid and this is will do will beg. Pardon, please don't do that.
That sort of thing you see because they are Elders if they will be put to shame like that. They're tasting a man like that. So this is how it was so they all again congregate the again going to be the same way. And now, you know more dressed in a woman's vesa thing. Although she is a woman now she has to dress as a man and they are they are all going there.
Now this time Baba says perfect Master sometimes the Premiership he wouldn't want to sit down. He made them roam about following. These here has all the time. They are playing the music and people are seeing public seeing these Elders following the recession you see behind them. So yeah. Yeah, so because he had come in order to uplift the community. Okay, we are
Simple thing. So what happened you can I can we take five more minutes. So what he'll tell them that we are coming five minutes. So what happened is that they eventually settles down and they come and beg pardon.
This is what I asked you soft in there. Are you serious about it? And they said yes, whatever has happened. We plead guilty. We beg your pardon. We are come to get remotes. Please forgive us.
This is one small word is given I can't be true. I can never do that heaven and Earth shall we words will never pay the blessings are they? It's not in my hands. But if my people were to pray to the Lord and beseech the Lord surely he will hear a dirty. So you beseech them. So he difficulty they accepted.
Is and they said Apple the prey to the perfect masseuses believe this youngster of this golden gradually. So such are the things. This is a perfect Master can be a union
Voices and beautiful and so many books that were read to rather Marvel class books and the wolves and so it became an exact voice as well. So this is our chief listen spreads and this is the time and he likes it like that. So the token Trilogy Lord of the Rings The Lord of the Rings was made out to be
First and then after a few years again, he won every word. I mean and you don't disagree the truth and you don't go ahead by yourself as he was coming. You should people bother and you read it and it may be just 10 minutes. He wants that reading done maybe two hours, but then I needed to talk acknowledged how the next time maybe the same day or maybe the next day and I say father had a habit of making a stop at the
My heart and you wonder what's going to happen Michelle of wonder if that cannot be because you could
That's why I had my charm. My father would say hearing to be unknowing the all-knowing appearing to be unknowing. That's the familiar a special Father's Day.
And I always be the problem only the happy ending because Baba story had a happy ending and his wife says don't worry about
If you did enjoy being yet atmosphere and do dance those songs of devotion and all that. It went flat likewise. There are pilgrims who come with hate expecting that well, they have heard from others. That such is the thing. The feelings are arouse our hearts. You see go out to Baba and we feel as if you see like iron filings get stuck to the tombstone and this and that all sorts of things are
And when they come over here, they have expectations that I have been aroused by the people there. This is what we don't feel anything what has happened to us something wrong with us something wrong with the reporting and what why is it like that but those who have reported they cannot be telling the lie, and those who are not experiencing anything. They are not telling lies why?
Is it like that?
Instagram the different places know why is it like that?
Why is it like that the mind what is the mind gets the expectation and he blocks Maybe?
If you come not expect anything else different structure coming with expected. Yeah, so should we do not expect that means it's a simple
Yeah expect something good. Is it a sin? Yeah, I mean it might be a my God. Anything is a synthesis construe what you've really we expected good things from them, but we felt that well we sinned in extracting but he said yourself up for disappointment. Yeah, that's a sin and that's it.
It is.
You know Roger Stevens remember him? He's an artist. Yeah. Yeah, and he likes to be very dramatically. So the before I had gone to the center in Myrtle Beach for the first time I said Roger, what's it like at the center? You hadn't visited I hadn't visited. He said this is the center. It's beautiful.
Happens he says everybody's happy and they and they dance down the past and when anyone sees each other they always hug and they say J bother. Oh my God, everyone knows each other without anybody saying anything and my God, this is done believe I wasn't even sure I wanted to go and he said and the trees he says they all been he also embrace you.
Every shell on Bob is beachhead father's face in it. So finally, I'm going to the first time I should have known better. I went down to the beach and I would look at it all the shells but none of them had been lovers must have taken him. God has saved you.
No, it is like that.
Roger must be saying the same. He said that he may have felt it Ernest is how he painted it? Yeah.
It's really nice. We know of one person who had bobbins. He said well, I'm at mayor van. Yeah so long
We were sometimes it doesn't same thing with me my mother admonish me for not being in presence of Baba. I was a student in college.
We're not in college high school. Why will you not kill he was waiting for you. You said I had my game. Do you realize who is he? Do you have any idea about it? He's arrestor coming amidst such as so hot. It is your as well. Alright, then reap reap your reward by saying. So what?
It is like that see you know, why because my heart was set on something else someone else at the time mother's heart was set on him. So she said this and she experienced that way. I experience it differently. So it is always like that but the best thing is
Drop all expectations
Just come for the sake of coming to brushing teeth.
Allowing him to take charge of you.
If you were to be involved in like one thing remember one thing I made II may not be the now I recall he didn't like us to be on the things sitting on the fence on the fence. He would say either jump in the air even and play the game you get out from me remember that. This is one of the tenants on the Eightfold Path.
Buddha's Eightfold Path what as a 12 volt battery many that one of them is one of them not to be indecisive the Zen Buddhist say if you're gonna walk walk if you're gonna sit sit, but whatever you do, don't Wobble Bobble give us a figure according to this.
It's environments is don't be on the fence sitting on the ground. I don't like you people watching us come inside and join get out from here.
No intrusion, but you're welcome. You follow what he need don't hesitate don't intrude, but you're welcome ignition is not restricted not restrictive. We have put the board admission restrictive.
Tu Mera saath to him it's not history.
Yes.
Not being able to yeah, that's what he's here about him. But he says I am having to go out but when you are coming here, they try to see what it is all about and all that.
He is so anxious. He's in such great Russian towards us that he wants us to rush to him. There's no time for indecision hesitations be here or be anywhere else where you can have me there, too.
If you are a Jesus freak out for Jesus and I'm there. But if you are Jesus speaking to trying to come and watch his his let me see what it was all about them. Maybe I might join them. Maybe I've made a return over there or something. No, he doesn't want that. That's what he meant trade.
When Bob has Last Visit to no, sorry, they come from Gujarat State the state adjoining to the state of Maharashtra. There is the state called Gujarat and they come from the state of Gujarat this downward city is now sorry and now sorry is the stronghold of all the rest in Orthodoxy.
The arrests increased get manufacture there. You see they are dumped in different temples of the country and even abroad so they are all come from now. Sorry sudha can all that sorted. That is Babas Last Visit to knock. Sorry. He will be called. Yeah. What happened? Which year was that 29th, January?
1956 his first visit was 1923 and 32 in second. Last visit was 56 29th, January Bob arrived at no sorry station.
God looks at me and then you can imagine we have come. So what happened is they anticipated in the Rival Bob has arrived but in anticipation of his arrival, they had constructed a huge awning at Med Cottage. He got is named after barber in the city the town they had fixed the time for Baba.
That should be the bothered arrived at the morning. So it is good that it takes race in lunch and all that's in the new. Yeah afternoon at about three o'clock three to five two hours. There are many who had come for taking the action and because of the crowd which is not possible if thing is that they come they're not to hear him lecture or anything. He silent so personal touches this
And the Personal Touch actually each one does not expect that he would Shake hand or do this or do that but the catch is transferred through something that he bestows upon the other and best way of transferring the touch physical to as the Personal Touch is through the through a thing called Prasad the gift from God to man. It's like that so they had placed Prasad a for Bobbitt this to do so
Because of the crowd naturally single-file filing past the channels are two hours only three to five it won't be sufficient. So he started Distributing them one line was ladies one was men. So they would come Line pass by like that. Listen to each one would be given this like that all the time. It's like Pistons working here then so side by side.
And while he bobbled Distributing the Prasad the atmosphere was charged with devotional songs, and there is a famous bar single radio single. He is known as was known as but you by Sony who passed recently passed away. She died. She was Ababa lover on 6 December. He has created that great song called Gaffney why Elizabeth company value transmit?
Russian was three. Three two by two hours such five to five bubbles asking. What is the time now was asking she really so he was holding that pretzel finger from the Distributing. Now, I hate him. Now. This is that you keep that thing this and take a round of the of the KU campus. Yeah. So where the people are gathered?
What about the other day total? Still tapping it under Saddam Brett mcgurk social gun control. So he says that when he naturally Barba told him to go and just take a strong. So while he clever kept the thing there and starting the wrong he went behind the crowd who were under that vast owning that will spread out. So what he notices that a youngster there.
I was trying to like the clock set by Set Fire to the whole thing. So as soon as he saw him just setting the fire. He was setting the fire barcia's because I told you it's a stronghold of the rarest in this he said that time they are the youngsters were incited by some.
Orthodox Elder is created Angie who was the uncle of one of the closest disciples. Ababa is by name ninja Misty and really missing family that here they are all related to them. So he was a major in the Army. He was one of the most formidable an antagonist 12 the ministry of so, they never bothered go to give that shrink any place, especially where these arrests in Congress would be he go there and you know,
Pitchers against God and incite the fury, so he had been there prior to having heard. He will keep a record of where he's going because after that event in advance and inside had incited them, that's what he said. So then what happened the time postfix three to five it was announced that five o'clock session is over. So then Baba was driven from the they were told that if they want to have they can come to the house.
Madhouse, but that should so then they Baba continue giving that's ended after from the public space than even there. So the public doesn't program and budget programs continued are instead of under the awning, which was just nearby
And program contributed at 10 o'clock in the night people came in to benefit a bob has presence.
Because gone there apart from those who had accompanied by other people by the devotees from Bombay had also taken advantage because bomb there now sigh not too far away. So they also took advantage of Baba's visit. They said they had come from Bombay. So two for them nestled in addition to for us Bob and people who were the barbecue people they are prepared food for them. It's horrifying.
So what had happened was that Baba had promised them that you pay a visit to their no sorry Center, I'll tell me about no sorry Center. So because of the program the delaying the program and all that not fun - yeah at 10 o'clock in the night and all that and because of the situation that was created by the Russian Community people's emotions over there. So he said that at five o'clock in the morning. He said come on, let's go to the Centre because I have promised myself to visit the center. I couldn't go.
Tonight let's go now sorry arrived at the center by six o'clock in the morning. Yes interval. So that people where did the devotees who were there who were conducting the center of his they were all gathered their father was there with them for about half an hour saying something performed his RT toddlers our team in you know, what art is what is it? Crazy? Yeah.
Glorifying the Lord spontaneous expression of glory to the Lord. Yeah, then what happened happened is at 8 8 o'clock. There's a train to go to another station for bajwa. We're also a devotee of our true disciple of babubhai named Harry Kaka whose books are printed version boots written many songs on Bob.
So by the wanted to go visit to his day his devotee his love of brother. There was a transport Arrangement was here bubbles me to sit in the car. It was all decorating all and Bob has driven procession to the place here. They are also people
Advantage of advantage
Howard has come happened was when Barbara was in no, sorry. So these arches are made to sit on the wall opposite mere house. He's Russians the Russian boys and they were shouting simultaneously that to me Baba get to never get too nervous. So whole Doctor purusa Who was naturally one of the chief workers and these people social bharucha was a bit short tempered in
He was so excited. So he says he wanted to do something. He says you just keep quiet valises achieved after all they're taking my name whether it be death. I am not dying. I'm not taking birth after all at least they take my name. So why are you excited on the contrary be happy that this is an excuse for them to take my name?
Then then what happened after program at bajwa then they had a fulfill the whole program that was organized in all that nicely after food and all that they returned and they came to Baroda station. They said that let the car be there he would like to take around a big city of them sack with him, but went out.
Came back to the station and that he proceeded. Okay, then we went to Surah from this, uh become part of my family that came out. That was the last entry.
So that was the last
That of gobble lover. That's great singer. Oh game of those the one that was instigating the boys to I've heard a story where that once happened where the boys were converted at the end. And yeah, she look on wasn't but he himself got converted me see by his nephew who was closely related to the daughter of this man and he eventually
He talked about Barbara last about more information about Bob and all that. He didn't come to Baba didn't see baba. But he died peacefully. Yeah change of heart to his weed abandoning a change of heart replace it with one that says those boys who were who were instigated they came to him because he is the worship worker there always they said that next time he called Baba will be the volunteers to assist.
It happens like that. Same thing happened in Northern India is where Bob Avengers which is now the stronghold of ours we will call it at no ranga. There's a place called no longer and therefore it when he went of course, he wasn't around he's visiting a place now. He is being rich. They the great enthusiasm. They are expecting again expectations coming into
Expectations
So when they are prepared and they are ready to receive and all that and they are gone.
To the next station from where he is to be escorted and brought to their tongue. In the meantime what happened. There were some adversaries over there is the Canal area is home where irrigation is done through canals. So they broke the canals and let the water sprayed where the Reduction Program was to be held knotted it flooded the whole place. So when Bob became even Bob has brought his cotton bro, man was a started what had happened how to
How to take Baba this
He was so sad. So frustrated and disappointed he cried loudly and went and offices what to me. Why why should you do that? Does it mean that we should enter my I should put my footsteps. They're beyond this water here. Also, we can gather together here. You have me why you feel disappointed. I will come again.
I'll come again to the place where you have decided. I'll come don't worry. And of course he changed the whole atmosphere and made them laugh and all of the things you will very humanely as possible. So we are when you try to kill others who see his close ones and sure enough the one who had done the damage in a year's time.
He came to him came to the one who wanted to receive other pieces do anything that call him.
And he every year and he takes the leading part in holding this big ferrets. He's the same one.
So such setbacks are important is just as Baba said Peter denied the Lord Lord wasn't important enough that he could Peter who loved him so much would allow him to deny like that.
Did not Jesus loved Peter. Did he not call that he is Rock. He's my right hand or whatever you call it. And why did you allow him to deny even photo that he did? Why did you do that? Is this the sign of the Beloved treats his lover like that everything evidently it is done with a greater purpose.
A greater blessing is in store for people because of the denial. He got the greater Vigor and push to do is push for Ministry after Jesus passed away.
I did not deny it. He would have been complacent and taken it for granted Anderson.
Stirred him deep study. Yeah aroused him.
Made him run because instead of walking through the graveyard.
That's how it is. Such things are good, but we feel so sad about the whole situation and the time Adam nothing to worry about Baba.
If the whole world were to prabha has said there's a message there in the whole world where to believe me and loved me. It wouldn't help enhance my Divinity and if the whole world were to deny me, it won't denounce me at all. Nothing. I am what I am.
Like that
Howard where did you hear about
In the states. Yeah, he met with two automobile accidents, you know that while in the states and one in India.
And one of the accidents he
Hurt his left side all of the lips. I second one is right side and so forth chips and Wilson's not hip but left arm and left leg and all that and the right size right hip and and although no stung everything. So I was the driver for the second accident.
And I felt naturally very sad about it has responsibilities and all the
And he wouldn't want to submit himself to the surgery or any other son. So false hip joint had to be created.
But that was not possible also because they what you call another this the ball is there and what is that socket tonight? I had busted and the authority acclaimed by the world. What are you serious? No, that is India, but in in England London the X-ray plates that were sent you see.
So he just had one glance at it and say this man will never walk and the report came and it hurt me a lot. He followed a responsibility like that this chick very the chair is not here select Creator shifted. So that chair was used all the time. He'll be sitting in the chair need lip. You try to walk by crutches and all that in the beginning the first accident.
So that is all right, so
I was very sad about it Baba one decent. Why is it that you feel so sad about the whole thing? Why are you so presumptuous that you consider yourself to be responsible for certificate who are you to be so presumptuous about it?
But I thought that he is comforting me and all that. Naturally. It's logical. Who am I to consider responsible? He is the Lord, how can I go against his will his plan his whatever has been ordained has taken place so good.
Well
Why do you feel about is nothing but see how helpless you are who says I am helpless. I want I'm not helpless and then he said well you think because I can't walk. I'm helpless, but I walk also and show you can create don't feel about it. And what's this every time I come out to suffer like this.
So, well I said well he's doing this little words of comfort to my heart and all the just accepted what he said, you know, I'm not sure enough he did walk. But before he could walk one day what happened is it takes to came into my hand?
And
Somehow or other the book opened. I am a reaping you see a lot of things but dr. William Duncan was there and Francis brother is on was because I think you have heard these babies. So then it is lovers devotees only people who live today the point of reading and they used to call all these things. It is life of Jesus you see
By whose is that remember the author famous author grapes Robert nothing Christ, so
Because lying somewhere I didn't know the person to whom it belonged may have may not have read it. Otherwise, he would have also informed us. So I just picked up because I'm really informed that the name About the Name of Jesus and all that some other in my heart it is there I came to Baba because of Jesus.
So I just opened it King Jesus. Let us open and be okay to open belt was given the description that Jesus also lived.
I was very curious about it what happened and the same thing the hip joint was Rockin.
Did you hear about that? No, you haven't heard about her. So I'll get the paper. Hello another he may not find it.
So then I was so touched by the whole scene that he described over the so I took to bother that passes.
This is you just see it you see it and you feel about why should you feel about it? It's always in my faith. That's what he said. So it was so touching that I typed it out. You see and kept that she'd been staying with me. I didn't know that although I studied life of Jesus, but I don't know he may be but he says about that after a lot of research has written written all that which is inside the book.
Maybe I'll get the it's very interesting from the book came Jesus by Robert Graves you once said that Obama said once you showed this tent and keep it it might be like
It is of Interest YouTube.
Nicanor is the same page same paper that I had used to read out about that after showing / got it typed out in Baba once called called for it trying to tell others about see what it is mentioned. Then of course, it had been typed out asked me to read out. He said keep it he making our know. What is this? This is not important.
Yes, the book King Jesus depicts the life of Jesus. He wants to take the shortcut always the book give him Jesus depicts the life of Jesus and the foundation of the Christian faith from a completely unorthodox standpoint.
Justifying his treatment of the subject. Mr. Graves in his historical commentary States refraining even from a bibliography which would be even more impressive than helpful. I undertake to my readers that every important element in my story is based upon some tradition. However tenuous
And then I have taken more than ordinary pains to verify my historical background. These researches have taken me into uncomfortably remote field nicanor the S seen Watchman of table or bowed before Jesus reverently and asked Lord. Are you prepared to suffer the things that are necessary to royalty?
Are you prepared for The Mooring?
I am prepared it is written behold the servant of the Lord shall prosper. He shall be exalted and praised and lifted High many were astonished Lord at you're doing or his face was marred more than any man and his body likewise the smart shall he sprinkle many nations with his lustral French.
King shall be done before him they shall see what has not been told them and learn what they have not before heard.
On the third day just before Dawn they led him by Torchlight to the heel stone. Formerly the Eastern altar of gilgul or Stone Circle long since vanished Mary of Bethany the daughter of
Jose styled, we oppose a beautiful kinswoman of Mary the mother of Jesus stood at one side of the stone Mary herself stood next to her and presently another woman came out of the darkness of the wood her face shrouded in a shawl and made a third with him, but said nothing.
Nicanor bound the ceremonial Dove Wings to the shoulders of Jesus.
Have no fear great Lord for our God will give his angels charge of you lest you dash your sacred foot against a rock.
As Dawn was breaking Jesus mounted upon the stone and Mary the daughter of cleopas Pride fly Dove of doves fly at that signal the kenites began to Pelt him with stones and sticks and filth until his face was wounded and disfigured and he toppled forward from the stone as the
Winded Icarus falls from heaven in the famous picture by Z axis.
But seven notables of tab or named after the archangels Raphael Gabriel Samuel Michael. Is it is he DQ is Italy qian is it killed honey? Oh and calf rail.
Stood below the stone and caught him before his feet touch the ground.
Now I have read that the great king of Babylon himself would submit during his coronation to be buffeted in the face by a priest and that King Herod when can't crowned King of the Jews underwent the same indignity which was the occasion of his remembering the prophetic buffets father menahem had dealt him at Basra.
But the ritual assault upon King Jesus by the seven notables of table.
It was a more ancient and cruel one by far performed again, after more than a thousand years in fulfillment of Prophecy. They wrestled with him seven against one until they had forced him to kneel with thighs diver cated.
Then the tallest and boldest of them climbed on the stone and left down on him.
And by that act of violence, the marring was completed. Jesus left thigh was pulled put out of joint the head of the bone being displaced and lodged in the muscles of the thigh and his left leg stretched out in spasm and twisted so that thereafter he limped with what is called the sacred lameness. The eighth sign of royalty had been added.
And he uttered No Cry or word of complaint.
Mary the Elder and marry the younger wept for pity but the tall old woman standing beside them. Suddenly Drew back her veil kissed the younger Mary on both cheeks laughed terribly and fled back into the wood.
The kenites took Jesus up tenderly and implored his pardon. They washed his face but Salve on his wounds and toward evening carried him in a litter to a spacious Arbor of Cedar and Fir branches, which had been erected in nicanor is guarding food and a different part in the book.
A shorter passage pilate asks, Jesus kindly you drink no wine. This is the last scene. Um, yeah the whole crucifixion I have a Nazarite vow. I see I will not press you to break it how fortunate that you speak Greek. Either way. You have to go to a good surgeon with that leg of yours. Unless the injury is an old one Hippocrates in his Treatise on dislocations gives precise directions.
Sections for setting the head of the femur back into its socket
If you leave things to Nature who is a notorious bungler a false joint forms and you will suffer agonies from sciatica and your old age by household surgeon will see to it for you. If you care to put yourself in his charge. He is skillful enough the operation may be painful but in the long run it is worth the pain.
However, we can discuss the matter at our Leisure. Meanwhile, I wish to ask you a routine question or two, which perhaps you will not mind answering. I will confine myself to questions of identity.
Say on your name is Jesus it is.
You were born in Bethlehem Bethlehem. Ephrathah in Judea. I was and you are reckoned of the House of David I am.
Tell me are you the Jesus whose name appears on this paper? It is a sheet from the corruption. We're honest census of 22 years ago. I've just had it extracted from the file.
I am that man.
These are the accepts that I took down.
And sure enough after that necessarily he
It was difficult for him to walk and all that. It's impossible to walk. So the lift chair was here. He would bring him here from his room to this place when we would go out on tours also will take the lift shells holding him.
That's how he all that he could do was stand erect with the help of two either side.
One day while he was sitting in a sofa chair comfortably.
He said he's trying to us as if he's trying to be out like that something so he went forward to help him if he wants to stand up and resist him and he got up and started walking.
Yeah, that's all that's see you all these memories are revived.
There is a scene in one of the movies where they're walking in the garden all of a sudden. I don't know the words puka or somebody bends down in Baba sits on his back. Yeah, but you did good not of the that you did when he first started working on The Veranda. He said that
President Hadi of Venus and see in both wanted to do her something for value and she said mom I want to like it the accident in America was on the left side.
Pardon
19th is the left right left side was all the left was injured and the right person in America was the left and the right was India. Yeah, that's important.
Yes.
Come on, I would like to say plenty of something very nice the edges.
And planning a very lovely we made me listen to a tape recording of snowflakes falling. I never knew snowflakes my Assam I knew rain did this was outside the cave of artistic the huntress cave and ICC. I've had that snow was falling and he made me listen to the sound of snow falling and purple eyes twinkle in it.
Yeah, that's something I've never had before and another thing which I've always loved the sound of church bells and even if child I suppose it's all associated with my math and nuns and church bells and all that and this triggers wasn't Marxist Church in Venice.
And it took and I sat down to please him. I was busy. I was going in the office as I came out. He was sitting there and you know be a smile is like lighting up a switch and it's invalid on its face lighted up my face lighted up. You should could I could I show you something today and I said, oh no to myself and then I said, oh, yes, that's imagine. It'll make him happy. This was the other way around it makes me so
A creeper
So, how are ya?
Did you wander was going before? Well, I wanted the 19th was born in 1936 in 1955.
Suddenly became aware of the possibility of a mystical life that you could have a real mystical relationship with the living Christ. I've been somewhat religious in my teenage years, but it was only when I went to college my first year college that I became really aware of this possibility.
And wasn't the Christ to live 2,000 years ago and was dead. But Christ was still alive and somehow I felt he was calling me to have this kind of relationship. This is a 1956 in Washington, DC.
I decided then.
Having been brought up as a Catholic. The only way that I felt I could really follow Christ was become a priest.
And I didn't want to be a priest of the United States as a parish priest that I had seen and known and worked with I felt that I wanted to go to the bar and Mission, so I joined our mission mortar and much to the surprise and disappointment of my family in 1956 Ian seminar.
It's sort of this only actually those the Catholic Family Irish Italian family. It was very disappointed in my position.
Well, they should have been happy on the colony one would think so. But in this case they weren't I was the only son.
The only son totally unexpected came very late in their life and
They expected more than Chris.
So despite the I decided that's really what I have to do. No matter who's there.
And it was a process of eight years of training in which we lived a life very similar to
The schedule that I've seen in the Diaries of Monza we need me no regular daily her REM and what you doing up at 5:00 in the morning hour of meditation and mass and communion and you're in silence all during that time and then you have breakfast in which you are read the lives of the Saints in the gospels where this was in maryknoll seminary in the United States is a fart machine seminar.
And
So I live this I live this life for eight years and
At the end of eight years. I was ordained a priest.
And by that time my family come around, hopefully.
So very happy and proud that I was.
And I was assigned to work in Korea. I went to Korea and I learned the language there and studied the language very hard for the first two years and became very fluent in the language.
By the end of four years. I became very very dissatisfied with my life and I felt like a total.
There's a saying in Hafiz that I read recently.
This is
All you preaches preaching from the pulpit to us all yet on the quiet you answer to a different corner.
And I felt that was me. Although I didn't know how pieces is this.
But I was really on the fence and I felt I couldn't stay there. I had to go one way or the other.
It was a very difficult decision because I had dedicated my entire life to Christ in Bruceton promise.
Totally giving here. I was feeling that I didn't really want to give that I wanted to take it all back.
So it was a very difficult period for me to use in 1968 and I asked to be relieved of my Parish duties in Korea.
And I felt I needed to go home to the United States and get some Council because I wasn't really in him.
Decision
So I went back and after about six months of counseling I came to the realization that well, maybe there were other things I could do with my life and it wasn't a total loss.
And so I petition my superiors and Rome to be released.
The obligate
The obligations of the priesthood and I retired and so that was after a process of about 15 years.
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