Eruch Jessawalla - Me My Mine Mind
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Me for so long. So naturally they are writing asked question in you and asking you questions. You took me to be the God man God in human form. So they'll say that well the how many years you all our past decades have passed so naturally all must have talked about God a lot be living with the god-man means what it all revolves around the topic of God God heard.
Says suppose if people were to come and ask you after possible after all. What did he see? What is God? What will you do? What will be your answer for you? He poses the question.
So what is God so then he said all these things he had already said that God cannot be understood. God cannot be there is gone cover 100 in this all that is there but what is God after all we cannot be understood if you cannot be ready cannot be theorized and all that. So what is God that's what he told us. He gave us the secret which I am sharing with you. How much will you pay me, you know, because
Well from Saudi Arabia, so what he said is when people will come and ask you.
What is God so the only answer to it is a counter question. What is not God there is nothing but God God is that the follow yesterday? I mean, this is not the same as not is only in one way is this is much gorgeous you are.
Does he is as long as you accept him accept it as the existence you allow the skill set to exist, isn't it? That's why you're showing it you take it as existence. God is existence infinite and eternal anything that exists naturally is what is not God anything that you make exists exists. Not a even non-existence is God because it exists in the infinite Eternal existence.
The infinite Eternal existence includes knowledge systems
That is God.
Some things bring you.
When your senses not find the words for it something want something wrong some things are more reminiscent of gods and other things. Yeah.
Otherwise you could worship you have God's hair and God still toenails and gods fingernails and God smile and God hears and God's spiritual matters. And God's this and gods that different types. You see suppose if you had to sacrifice something would you want to sacrifice even option is given well Alan will be option here to your sacrifice your small finger or your eye. Which would you prefer what?
There's no cure. What do you make about you have preferences why because one is less useful. So that's how it is. So there are degrees of easy. See the aspects they are in existence is that he being existence infinite internal there are these different variations and aspects of his existence.
Is it because of the mind about us is that we have all these radiations other there's no such thing in mind is the thing that gives separateness many nurses and all that and how can he tolerate the Menace? So he gives
Any good figure is?
Big to us. It appears to be many - but how what is his experience of the men in essence? You are the embodiment of Menace and yet he considers and you experience as Alan as a whole don't you experience that sometimes actually Hadley Hadley?
So Alan Hadley will be no evil, but your very being is nothing but
Meninist manifest in years
There's the hair of yours the eyes of yours fingers and throw these Scrolls the side Smiles your feelings your thoughts your liver and pancreas and heart and all the sort of thing is did it full of many nurses but total experiences of Oneness and likewise him being nothing but many means in this creation. He experiences himself as one
The experiences of Alan - Alan but Alan is composed of so many things which is Alan to it's like that but then he says Nah Talent, that's Alan's here. So that's what he would say that yeah. That's my hair to Alan is my dreams. He'll say
But it is helping him it stems from him. It is rooted in him.
It's his being the brings about this. That's how it is. And that's what Baba has given succinctly, you know, you have read Wayfarers written by an English Doctor. Dr. William Duncan her saying that succinctly as put you see mind working is mad.
You got ourselves a human being man. See persistently. My mind working is man mind working fast is mad.
Mind working slow is God absorbed the word that he has used. His must MST is their word in vernacular. We describe the god absorbed as one whose overpowered so mind working is man mind working fast is mad mind working slow is God absorbed mind. Stop is God.
It is the mind that creates all the variations differentiation of that's what he tells us all that we have to do is to experience live that no amount of Curry can make you live without your mind is because you fear is because of your mind you'd realize it before sister mind that takes you to him in mind that the drawers you from away from him. So when you go to sleep for if you're knocked unconscious or but consciously he says what you have to do is
Mind stops in your conscious you in full Consciousness then only you have the experience of your infinite do
When you begin to sound sleep, unfortunately as a human being you have full and complete Consciousness as he described record speeds, but it is overburdened with all the Impressions, but your mind the time we see when you are fast asleep somehow or other you become unconscious.
So what is needed is to remain fully conscious in your sound sleep State? And that is God's Great. $64,000 Question. How do you stop your mind? Then? What you have to do is to you stop your mind, but then there are many variations where people going for it in the past Edwin's. He has come and given us various formulae for it. He has given us many paths Milestones on the east
Show journey and that is why they are known as the different yoga's Karma. Yoga means selfless service Indian yoga to determining and deciphering and perceiving and Raja yoga hot yoga and all and the bhakti yoga. But the yoga is the one eventually revert to After experiencing all these various parts of Milestones that are given to you on this.
Ernie what you have to do is think all these yoga's all these practices they help you not to stop your mind. But to still your mind, it's still the man. So for the time being will you feel the presence of the Eternal existence?
And you find yourself within it the symphony. So where is your rooms here in it? But what happens is as soon as you come out of it of the transfer of of that attitude of your mind the Mind begins to work again when mind still is not stop so what is needed is for mind to start is to steal the mind as tal - to be stolen.
Heart has to be given the opportunity and that can be done only by loving the Lord intensely.
It is most intrinsic sense. Not the lovely call it the sex love of the life that the human being lives you see of love to love him is to love all he said
To love all is not loving him.
But you love me in all is loving me also.
So that's how it is. It's all words are in all these bubbles say that these are all words High thinking good is some philosophers were around him. And at that time they were saying about their own philosophy and all that versus all good. But you know my definition of philosophy simple thing made difficulties Philosophy for me, so I don't understand all these things all I want you is know one thing.
You all that you have to do is and fall back time. And again, this is unloving me. This is love me and look the rest of the business be looked after by him. That's what you tell us. But what happens is while loving him. We don't allow him to take the rest of the business in his own hands. We keep it in our hands wanting to progress wanting to advance want you to reach him, but you mean you shouldn't want with no nothing.
You shouldn't be Baba says you go and I come that's the only thing that is needed.
Who is that experience? Nobody is left experience. And that is the experience that we called void? Yeah, that's called me one.
Again, we have a deep science of you have noticed that your right. Good morning.
But is a jetty that's how you take positions on this occasion. We have a yeah, I know you're very very to use the knife here. Only. We allow him to use the knife. What is
That game you put your hand. Oh God a knife.
This is that jumping cruise and you give the knife to your best friend to do what the knife. You know, what the king but suppose if he's cockeyed as I am, but you don't give it to my friends. He cannot be your best friend.
That's right.
That's right. So we have to be very discreet in creating friendship, too.
So Tim, what was you said something is of you have a question you by the way be free to ask we are only for a day. So don't hesitate you can go on asking if I know I will change the subject. Can I change the subject? Yeah, and I asked about you. What about me? What about you? Personally? Yeah, what is it?
So I'll ask because I'm only here for a day. It's a bit rude. I was going to ask you if there were times when you found it very difficult to follow there were almost impossible when you felt that it wasn't worth the candle.
Yes, so yeah, but let down can you describe this?
And how did you how did you change from those from that City? I will not be doing Justice to your question because your question for me is rather wacky a bit, but it amounts to that never got I never was a time when I felt.
That it was not worth wife because never have I come to him.
But that question in my mind that it is worthwhile to follow him you follow so there cannot be any occasion that I must think about that. It's not worthwhile. So it's never occurred to you to doubt father. None of it. I'm just trying to I know I know what I am saying. Is this that never did it occurred to me that is never were not worthwhile to be with him because I didn't come with the intention that it is worthwhile to be with her. What?
Happened to you follow what I am saying. If you don't follow please ask me to repeat because you know my limitations. I am an illiterate person. I'm not an English Professor like you be indulgent with me and ask me to clarify so never was there a time without oh my what had happened is my coming to him was that he called me. He summoned me.
I don't know why but he summoned me to him, you know there have been occasions in the past. You'll even come to me. How did he summon you I mean which cabled me and says come to me. I want to see you come immediately and see me, so I came after all, you know his personality but following this lat least this little routine the rebellious person calls and you go my parents knew him and I
I had come to know of his name to my parents.
And I come to respect him and regard him having regards for him. Kindly good lovable person good or good person and that that's how it was that relationship was there.
Because my parents followed him and I was a student in college.
So he summoned me while I was on vacation in summertime and summon me to naturally I either one writes a letter or one calls out or One sensor cable television, so I was sent a telegram and I didn't take it. Seriously. This is come immediately and see me at my table. Sure. This is the place where it's trending. So well, I took the cable and put it in my pocket because I was had a hobby of
And summertime where I was we'll really really telling upon the delicate plants and plants were my hobby and I love them very much and they were really not the ordinary type but there are red planet's.
So I was trying to put them in shade and trying to take care good care of it and all that.
Motherhood that some messenger at come to a case a bungalow because she came she was very diligent because the ring the bell, you know, when the guns like the comments they used to come on cycling. They had bells on the cycle nowadays. We have Messengers. They don't have even bills. They just have that people in. Hey get out from you and come. Hey, is there anybody like that? So there is two very polite. It was British rule number.
Take some discipline and ring the bell and nice bill. So my mother heard that and came out. Did anybody come here any messenger? Look at that was the sign we used to see telegrams lot of tell you when my father was on a big toast. So say yes mother there was there is a telegram this is from bill. So I just took it out for my pocket or my hand it over.
No time even to talk about it all and the mother says what are you doing keep calling you immediately and that there is a train there now into a couple of hours. What are you trying to do as a mother? I can't leave immediately means it can be next day. What's this? That's the immediacy about it. He calls me. I'm going I'll go. Oh, yeah, I love it. I love it that this is what do you realize? He's calling you immediately.
So for the first time I had a tiff with my mother manga score, I remember that and she just turned back and walked away from him because she wanted me to leave everything and go immediately. That's how she believed in the Lord and that's how I took the Lord's words before I'm giving you a little difference that he's a tricky Lord whenever he comes in a midst as a human being he has the same.
Eighth of a human being to be tricky God is really very innocent as he is in his intrinsic being is guileless, but when he comes down as a human being be where I tell you you can play tricks with. Yes, Mac open confession to you all.
However, tricky you be as a human being but he is still more. So when I continued my work my mother and a half left me and all that.
I was but yeah, I was sad at heart that I displeased my mother because I love my mother very dearly. They're good parents do the trick that he played was that within our another messenger comes having the same contents, but from a different station, he sending another cable to come immediately and see me.
Well, I took I was working in the garden winds outside. So naturally I was the first one to accost that man tidbit and I saw the cave in the name of the station is different. So it's registered that he's traveling with somebody in the train from a different station is sending me cable. So my mother comes again a message again I said, yeah, I gave it away.
That was to blow her top off. So she said that what are you trying to do? He's calling you and there's no more time left. Don't you want to come inside and prepare yourself to go? This is a long distance from the village. That's how I came to him. I went to him I of course immediately left everything. I asked the gardener to attend to this and the I didn't like to leave the familiar.
Pots and plants and but some are other for the love of my mother I had to go and I did go and when I went there the interview was just this I will then I of course had to find out and report. It doesn't take much time to find out his whereabouts the point of people pointed. He's gettin that Bungalow go there done that street and I've been there when I entered he was there in
So looking at me, he was sitting on the floor and he was in silence. He looked at me and his gesture of finally feeling. Yeah, he was expecting and I came so he was happy to see me I said yes, I did come come inside and he embraced me and I love
Sit down I said this is
I want you to leave everything and come come away and be with me. Is it possible? I don't know what made me say that that's again another trick of the god man. So I comes from my lips these words why I said it I don't know still gets to this day. I don't know because I was that follower of meher Baba as people call the lover of meher Baba to fall in fall fall for him.
I think he said that by a blessings Anything is Possible.
So he was very happy with the answers is yeah, it kept me on the back sister. I want you to come on 1st August. This is me end of me. So come on 1st. August recess arrived arrived. It was on first order I said, yes.
He embraced me and I left that was the only male in immediacy about it all I don't know why you called me Father Justice. They say that he could have even if he is what he is that made me say that that anything is possible by you by your blessings and he could have even written to me and that would have been possible don't you think so, but it needed that Personal Touch. I think what I think so, so
That's what it is needed.
He can summon us you can ask us to do many things from that. He's in the seventh heaven, but sometimes he feels that personal touches are needed and therefore time and again, he comes in our midst as a human being although he's capable of being anything from wherever he be. And then as I am stepping out of the room he break his to me and says, I look back sit down. Is it possible for the whole family to dinner?
I can come by your blessing by your grace. Anything is Possible.
I didn't use the word blessings and sorry it was by your grace. Anything is possible. That was the word I used. So he again was happy system till all of them to come on faucet leave everything in Concord. That's how we are you doing very successful before, you know, whatever. I had studied the life of the Lord Jesus Christ and but never put to use those words.
Yes interpret for you, no more numbers because it was all by myself and him and you could just understand this. Yeah, because he had taught me to read is born when I was a child. That's the difference too long story. But this you know is to pay a visit to our place and you'd come as children will be there around him and all that and you want to play rough games, but he wanted us to be
It eventually I absconded I just he would wait I would keep him waiting and then all that in the evening, he will take me and then of course you'd make tell me stories on the board and that fascinated me and I will try to read faster and still faster. You move the fingers past. That's how I gather to read the board from a childhood without my knowing. So it was it was nothing. It didn't even occur to me that I am all by myself because I used to be with him like that when used to be
I got home late from there. I came here to meet him there Apollo. This is about a sec. Will you please get that letter that I wrote to the what's the name? Forget the name of Lady Marmalade images he knows so what happened is
That smelly eventually to cut the whole story short because you are only here for a few hours and team is waiting for another question. So I eventually all right. We all arrived at his place young people with him and he I'm still here.
But in between many years have passed by and to answer your question. I will read out a letter I wrote in reply to a person who asked me that question so that will put an end to the Curiosity of whatever it be.
And it went on that state of my mind was such to see what I said in the beginning. Pardon. So what what what I was saying is Alan that I didn't come to him with any thought of any gain or being rough bro being worthwhile to be by his side you follow what I'm saying is my logic was there at the time
Understanding was quite different if he called me and I came but why I came I didn't know that's not the case with most people is it helped with me but then what happened? Yes, not the case with most people you are lucky. So yeah, that's right. It is wonderful. That's true. What you saying is I'm blessed I should say not lucky. It is his grace that it keeps me to him and all that because there are many instances where people would want to come and they live with him.
And to prolong this day, it only needs his grace which happened to come out of my mouth. And yeah, he filled me with his grace to be with him. That's true. There's no doubt about it. So what I'm saying is that but that same person that we have heard all the stories of people the Lord having a some of them at least one or two examples are the mentioned give and come and follow me and that's the end of the whole story.
But it's not getting that also. It is the beginning what happened is but nobody tells us what happened to them. But I am here to share with you all the experiences and my mother said at the time when I returned home nestled, they were anxious. Why did he call? So what she said is how blessed we are that he owned his own called as instead of are having gone and clung to his wrist you see to hold on to him.
Perchance are gripped loose loosened and he might listen we might leave any abandoned. But now that he has called us. He has a hold over us. It is his grip over us. So there's no chance of Escape brother and she was overjoyed and all that and more so for her for her and for others, who were they I didn't know all this all this was something very strange to me.
Didn't register anything there and she's happy. I'm very happy because my parents are happy. My father says, well, I asked my father what has he to say, this is no all that has been spread and collected and gathered around the biggest state in that my father had created all the amenities and Facilities with including pools swimming pools and aviaries innately reason tennis courts, and this and that perfect garden, which was considered to the best of the god.
Aden in the whole city so many things were there and this is our collect all this for your happiness and Welfare, and if you find greater happiness at his feet, I am unhappy about it. That was the answer and that's how we all came but that is not the end of it. All that is the beginning and people think that well once you leave the world and you come on that's the end of it, but he doesn't want us to give the world. He wants us to be always in the world.
Not of it.
This is the first time he has made it very clear to us.
So on soon after that, of course, we thought that we are not the world and all that and became just with a little bit in world of heart in what you call the Dear Old Mattress knowledge so and a pair of clothes and that was also and he thought that when that's the end of the world worldly life, but long four separate occasions
Made us create a new home and that was following him.
When we are had our home of her parents, it was following ourselves. Now this he wanted us to establish a home and live in it.
And that was following him. Although we were householders brothers and sisters went to schools and colleges and did this and is to go to marketing for marketing. We have to pay the rent and get paid the taxes this that and all that but doing for whom doing for God.
There's a world of difference doing for oneself and being for him doing for oneself is living.
That's how for four times for different occasions and he would himself go with me in order to find another house another Cottage to see that my family is properly housed in it.
Thoughts never occurred in my mind at the Times. What is this nonsense going on? He left made us leave the world world are we had our established home and all that? What does he want us to be back in home his grace?
Such things never occur. But what happened is the doubts occurred in different ways and that is depicted here mind is a very tricky thing human beings such as Alan, you know, we all know but we never try to share with others. We are just shy of a trickiness read read what it is. So this will give you an idea about my life with letters dated December 7th 1977.
My dear Medi right there sweet letter of November 23rd. This is he's a professor in the wrong here on Terra your sweet letter of November 23rd touched my heart deeply and I am grateful to beloved Baba for giving us such arches yours to warm our hearts with the beauty of his love that he has poured into yours.
By now hundreds of people have asked me. How do I believe Baba is God and you're asking the same question is nothing surprising. My simple answer is I believe Baba is God because he is God, but you have also asked me how do I believe him to be God? Well, it took my mind to accept him. As God does more than 40 years and the last
Thirty years were spent almost at his feet making my mind hold on to him to his Donham sometimes with both hands. Although my mind was bombarded constantly with and by his statements. I am God in human form. I am the ancient one. I am the god man. I am the highest of the high. I am infinite Consciousness. I am infinite and eternal existence.
Existence I am infinite power knowledge Bliss. I am the lowest of the low and the highest of the high I am I am I am and I am in spite of it all and in spite of his overwhelming physical presence my mind my stubborn and stupid mine interrogated Within Me is he that is he that such his mind which is
So his creation to keep going his game of hide and seek it. Is he who hides and it is he who seeks and is eventually sought and found he is Medi is the seeker and the disciple and the lover and he's in search of the Beloved. He remains hidden behind maybe or in other words. He himself. Where is the veil of Medi and plays the Divine game of hide-and-seek?
Seat when he sheds the veil Medi he reveals himself and proclaims himself. I am God. So my very dear midi as long as he continues to identify himself as midi you as midi stand no chance of experiencing beloved Baba's godhood. Hence beloved Baba has exhorted us saying God is infinite.
Eternal existence and he is never lost therefore God cannot be found how ridiculous it is to find something or someone that has never lost. So stop trying to find God he can never be found for he is never lost what indeed is needed is to Lose Yourself and God continues to be imminent.
Beloved Baba has comforted us so often by wanting us to be determined to be his once we remain determined to be his and completely Depend and rely on his grace and compassion. He takes over from us the process of unveiling himself. So be ever determined to be his be childlike and depend upon his compassion and Grace.
Entirely and allow him to wind up his game of hide and seek within you.
You asked me whether I have the experience of his godhood and my answer is then that I do not have this experience, but I believe in his godhood and his being the ancient one best for you is that you visit us here often and allow us the pleasure of your company so that you may show that by your questioning. We will remain all the more in his company.
Your cherished everything it is from this level with the question I had for you today something. That's all. I've been thinking having radius and come with that question. I was thinking I wish that everyone would let me read that letter I'll because it answers all the questions you've been asking that question tells the story.
Is a person is he who loves Baba he has begun to love was in the states. Then he went back you see on his post. He is a worker there and genuinely ask these questions. He has visited twice tries here that is like that every time you'd say I you know, my role was to interpret his gestures to read his board and public.
Address system is there in my hands and I am reading his board or gestures and say meher. Baba says that he is God in human form mind. I would say it loudly but nobody knew what's happening within you mind immediately interrupted. You see that before when what happens to read to his board and he said he would say aye I am in the beginning in the beginning.
Us you see when he used to teach us to read his board. He did that as a child and I was but later on you see he would use his gestures finger gestures and his assertions were so eloquent that one even you would follow what he's saying. This it yeah.
I'd like a typist also composed words of other languages becoming some boards of Marat. He would come in or Hindi enough Gujarati. Right? Shy
Very quick, but he was so quick and so great book. There's no place like this.
Please leave a rating from we were on that side of the board. Yeah, I could be very casual.
Take pains to make us feel at home with them so that when we were playing the cards or any game with it that the man.
Of the other side with man. She looks like God man. There was more emphasis on demand and going to be totally immersed in that aspect of really enjoy ourselves even pointing out to him that he was cheating and then you would do it again to show as we couldn't catch him out anyway, and at the end of business people do mind us. Don't forget I'm God.
I'm going to be remember to see the Scott Devitt take pains to show that he was may be received very tricky, but I had to come into that mind reading Hall one morning. Barbara was seated here and the main man delivers treated before him and Barbara rose. Look.
Looking weak enough well, and so I better go to the women's side earlier for luncheon and to retire to my room to rest. So I came over at that time for something and I saw this happening. I saw Baba looking small frail.
My mom is from Bob Adams big salty. And when we click back, there are certain incidents at this AI when we set this and this happened probably be so big because we didn't realize at the time is it and there are moments when we look back on and we realize how small about other twelve frail. So when I came in that is how Papa help and he said,
Health is not at all. Good. I want to go sooner that to retire. So immediately Emma jumped up and Francis and they both came to him one to the right one to the left to code up his hand to help lift it up. So that people can go over to be in the literature. They would carry him. So Francis Scott the left hand arish cover right hand and
I was just about to lift him up supporting upholding and bottles to looking play and week and I saw this happening just a finger but back up and was in their hands imperceptible. And when it is that they almost hover over them and over each other the kind of Faith from falling on and
Into the arm of the chair the other but only for the actual country just for a moment and then this to that and Frances was so amazed and he said oh bother you are twinkle in his eye. He said don't forget it.
Isn't there a story where after some seclusion work or something when he had been fasting for a long time? Also, he got the mandolin a line and they tried to push him in like that was only use yeah a whole line of monthly won't respond to just make him budge from the seat. They didn't the try the best people.
So that's the strength. You see that he exhibited in this in to teach ask children. You know, we were young. What happened to Ireland. Where is he, you know the story.
Giving that shown in those times when he said all right, they can all come.
That was an opportunity to take it because of the end of it and the - Summer's over which we look forward to the household Monday. Look forward to the end of the deception. You know, we were all so selfish but and survival is open the door that has opened a tiny bit against upset whenever his double together before introduction, but when it was over and he would be coming into the room.
Then we had our Baba and changing its just hired arranging for giving into my home. So then after that if somebody says a message that someone was late and they would love to see you Barbara. Just one minute. Oh
So anyway, when they always nervous before him and among them was Taylor Taylor as The observed told us who have developed before all nationalities of all card slots. So among the doctors and the lawyers businessmen and and
And he was totally one of us and I have to show something I had to do it with my own hand. We actually we are so on the other side.
And he says, you know look at the bottom of the step whenever Simon told of his heart's desire, you know, take something with my own hands. I want to make a coat on it. I want to serve a culture that and every sort of course, actually, I think a message was sent and came back and said, yes, you could do it so ever so well you will need the measurements.
You are so deep inside an indignant measurements me. Have you heard my name before? I only have to take one look at a person and I know that oh, what about the color and just allow me to do it and went and told us later that we just cut the material.
All right by hand starting the night on the bait is done the argument came and its really except it was a shot. Anyway, when you go to Baba and Baba tried it on at night Chris. It was so big Either Way Beyond.
He kept saying, but bother you such a fan of Taylor, bye-bye.
Anyway, because of that excuse Baba uses also there so many purposes served in this that it does Office of the zapper for the man to see the tailor to see bottle because that tourniquet above put it on but I just really couldn't believe it and then he said that I first told us he looks so be so pleased.
Hot this hope would be to tight fit. That's the only thing that one but then be so bad. I guess maybe came about that.
What is your question more Robert on the first story that mind hole where we just move the finger and you and Frances. Yeah, what were your thoughts at that time? Nothing good thoughts were to just help him out from the seat. You know, he met with an accident.
And that was after the second accident where his hip joint got busted and it was not easy for him even to get a from the trail. So when he desired to leave the manly Hall, we've got him a lift a little hand make him stand up and they lift chair will be brought there and help him become and then make him sit on the lips a little this is the case that he used just a lot of thoughts the thoughts would be there but
But once we did have a thought both of us because see that handles are there there will be one person holding the end to bars. And in the front there will be two persons holding the chain. So what we had noticed was virtually can't hold with two hands one has to hold it with one right hand the other on the left hand. So that's how transition myself will hold Francis was not that old as people.
Seen him now. He was very active and strong and he's still strong but was not years ago. So one day so happened. We still need to register certain things while lift lifting him and take him there and bring him here now that so one day it was abnormally a thing that is to be registered. And that was that simultaneously we both felt that he was
Was very light and average weight was there and all of a sudden we were shoulders have to balance the weight all of a sudden that came awake is very heavy weight in on the chair from where did it come so far as looked at me and I looked at him. That was the only thought that we had and we just exchanged this process is what's this you notice that yes, we have been noticing I said, yes, I have been noticing but this
Abnormal awake you see that's the only thought we have but the thing is Robert to us now while we talk about it while we reminisce but at the time his presence is so overwhelmingly these these these thoughts which are pertinent no doubt, but they they were straight thoughts for us. They really dude sometimes even if they come we wouldn't be any apply.
Significance to these things, but the register sometimes you see once in a while. His presence was overwhelming to be with him is enough and to carry out his behest as I told you all whatever it is his grace is that's the thing.
Eric's you remember the day that Duncan died?
He died at will play a villain place the he dies in a car Tuesday's. Yes. I don't want me after bubble wrap the body. Do you remember that day or the events of that day? No, the only thing that was prior to his death he had comes here. He had paid a visit to bomb day and he came to my cabin the cabin University that the chair here. It is his camp chairs. That is the chair there so he came and sat down. He used to smoke.
Smoke a pipe or cigars and he always used to have Nescafe with him. I don't know he got wedded to these two things because he couldn't although he stayed with us for so long and he mastered our languages and all that but he could not develop the taste engine taste. He could not stand the chilies and the purple that we use the amount of children paper because
Done before because of a lot of smoking and coffee drinking and all that. See you sad the smoking and all that. He said just before he died. He said this means some days before he died. He's I met him here, but the last day I don't know anything about it, but he never stayed here. He is used to stay there. But I definitely remember that he comes there and we have a chat and all that and there is something some letter that has come of some Baba lover somewhere. I
Get now and I said Dawn we should call him Dawn Dawn hear this and I read out that some experience there and he was smoking and he was hearing and for the first time after a life with him from 1939 to 1969 30 years for the first time. He spoke out.
At least my hearing I vividly remember the day when I met him first, that's what he said. He he wouldn't speak out. You see was you know English people are very conservative didn't want to speak out thinking they keep to themselves very reticent. Yeah, and it would consider to be not a ticket, you know to speak out openly right now as I speak our receipt root for them.
Please be indulgent if I like that so he speaks out now and he's reminiscing. Yeah, that was the day he did this Vivid in my memory.
I said what is the day which day?
The first day that will and Mary took me really because will who took me to Baba I was a student in the Medical College. He was studying medicine he gave a surgeon eventually and brother must have gone to England for the first day and they had told him about Baba will and Mary Beckett. I don't know whether you're a heard the name willing me the Ancients the archangels above us by wish to call them.
So and it led me to his room and I entered and I don't know what happened.
All I saw was I didn't see Baba. All I saw was the whole room was just sitting bright light in it was it was just total brightness. That's all and in that brightness. I was standing there not noticing anything except the brightness and my knees began to quick and I was
Not study at all. I didn't know what happened. I don't know why or how I found myself outside the room, but I used to walk. I am starving walking the street, but I was out of mine. Well myself is it lasted for about 10-15 days and that Vivid In My Memory my first visit meeting with him was not seeing Mary bother the seeing what he really is. That's what he told me.
Where do you get this inevitable speak out? And yeah.
About Duncan experience we call them done because the first time he was asked his name by Kaka Bhatia interesting William like the English would do that in God's name, don't you?
I was talking about the how would the doctrines were over?
David coming
To the beach the second house code and the residents monthly and at that time you wanted everybody to me everybody. I'm going to Prasad what come for the option to leave and he was to have the best have they all gone. There is everybody gone again and again so they become time once in a while when I laugh
Then it arrival would be reported and they would beg please we have waited for this was held on such and such happened and this happened to the train and this happened to the pong game. And for some reason or other he couldn't get there in time. You have Barbara's lashes and the whole Congregation of the JavaScript before him. So the monthly didn't want Baba just said, but they had to remove to in the end some messages coming through someone.
And it would reach back. So the women.
But then I also take the side of the rather who was learning so much more about them than if we didn't know when bubble would give - enables. All right, so it would ask if it wasn't on if it was removed to just wipe off the perspiration from the long hours of being there. So he would have a son and then you'll be walking about to the minimum wage side usually
Probably with his hand on marathon and then go ahead and take over and be with him and he would ask for the goddess, but the pink Garnet the Garland now all the gardens that were office you baba and we put around his neck when it would reach up to here are it would remove the whole lot and also keep are should keep jabbing by the forehead.
All the flowers of Garland's death and bubbled except the garden because ever an expression of that love for him. It's sometimes a child or a tiny woman couldn't reach over to put the Garland on bad of may help them. So that is all this but each year. There were also some which we kept it together not the fresh flowers. They were made of
Phelps are our paper or cloth material that could be put that cash. I remember but we couldn't find it at the short notice that if I wanted to do it quick and get it over with and if the mother of God, where's my God the garden and this is you look beautiful. You know, where is it? It's all right, darling.
All of himself half of put it on like it put on a scarf and he went over to the men's side are dashing claim back it up. Now that is explained explained by bother. They did not understand and Bubba having open heart a crack for that occasion when I was lot of the Victorian it wasn't shut up.
Yes right away. So when he was going back for one individuals the force of it would be too much.
So the process has to be broken or distracted so naturally see what chemicals was I bored.
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Eruch Jessawalla - Me My Mine Mind
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Me for so long. So naturally they are writing asked question in you and asking you questions. You took me to be the God man God in human form. So they'll say that well the how many years you all our past decades have passed so naturally all must have talked about God a lot be living with the god-man means what it all revolves around the topic of God God heard.
Says suppose if people were to come and ask you after possible after all. What did he see? What is God? What will you do? What will be your answer for you? He poses the question.
So what is God so then he said all these things he had already said that God cannot be understood. God cannot be there is gone cover 100 in this all that is there but what is God after all we cannot be understood if you cannot be ready cannot be theorized and all that. So what is God that's what he told us. He gave us the secret which I am sharing with you. How much will you pay me, you know, because
Well from Saudi Arabia, so what he said is when people will come and ask you.
What is God so the only answer to it is a counter question. What is not God there is nothing but God God is that the follow yesterday? I mean, this is not the same as not is only in one way is this is much gorgeous you are.
Does he is as long as you accept him accept it as the existence you allow the skill set to exist, isn't it? That's why you're showing it you take it as existence. God is existence infinite and eternal anything that exists naturally is what is not God anything that you make exists exists. Not a even non-existence is God because it exists in the infinite Eternal existence.
The infinite Eternal existence includes knowledge systems
That is God.
Some things bring you.
When your senses not find the words for it something want something wrong some things are more reminiscent of gods and other things. Yeah.
Otherwise you could worship you have God's hair and God still toenails and gods fingernails and God smile and God hears and God's spiritual matters. And God's this and gods that different types. You see suppose if you had to sacrifice something would you want to sacrifice even option is given well Alan will be option here to your sacrifice your small finger or your eye. Which would you prefer what?
There's no cure. What do you make about you have preferences why because one is less useful. So that's how it is. So there are degrees of easy. See the aspects they are in existence is that he being existence infinite internal there are these different variations and aspects of his existence.
Is it because of the mind about us is that we have all these radiations other there's no such thing in mind is the thing that gives separateness many nurses and all that and how can he tolerate the Menace? So he gives
Any good figure is?
Big to us. It appears to be many - but how what is his experience of the men in essence? You are the embodiment of Menace and yet he considers and you experience as Alan as a whole don't you experience that sometimes actually Hadley Hadley?
So Alan Hadley will be no evil, but your very being is nothing but
Meninist manifest in years
There's the hair of yours the eyes of yours fingers and throw these Scrolls the side Smiles your feelings your thoughts your liver and pancreas and heart and all the sort of thing is did it full of many nurses but total experiences of Oneness and likewise him being nothing but many means in this creation. He experiences himself as one
The experiences of Alan - Alan but Alan is composed of so many things which is Alan to it's like that but then he says Nah Talent, that's Alan's here. So that's what he would say that yeah. That's my hair to Alan is my dreams. He'll say
But it is helping him it stems from him. It is rooted in him.
It's his being the brings about this. That's how it is. And that's what Baba has given succinctly, you know, you have read Wayfarers written by an English Doctor. Dr. William Duncan her saying that succinctly as put you see mind working is mad.
You got ourselves a human being man. See persistently. My mind working is man mind working fast is mad.
Mind working slow is God absorbed the word that he has used. His must MST is their word in vernacular. We describe the god absorbed as one whose overpowered so mind working is man mind working fast is mad mind working slow is God absorbed mind. Stop is God.
It is the mind that creates all the variations differentiation of that's what he tells us all that we have to do is to experience live that no amount of Curry can make you live without your mind is because you fear is because of your mind you'd realize it before sister mind that takes you to him in mind that the drawers you from away from him. So when you go to sleep for if you're knocked unconscious or but consciously he says what you have to do is
Mind stops in your conscious you in full Consciousness then only you have the experience of your infinite do
When you begin to sound sleep, unfortunately as a human being you have full and complete Consciousness as he described record speeds, but it is overburdened with all the Impressions, but your mind the time we see when you are fast asleep somehow or other you become unconscious.
So what is needed is to remain fully conscious in your sound sleep State? And that is God's Great. $64,000 Question. How do you stop your mind? Then? What you have to do is to you stop your mind, but then there are many variations where people going for it in the past Edwin's. He has come and given us various formulae for it. He has given us many paths Milestones on the east
Show journey and that is why they are known as the different yoga's Karma. Yoga means selfless service Indian yoga to determining and deciphering and perceiving and Raja yoga hot yoga and all and the bhakti yoga. But the yoga is the one eventually revert to After experiencing all these various parts of Milestones that are given to you on this.
Ernie what you have to do is think all these yoga's all these practices they help you not to stop your mind. But to still your mind, it's still the man. So for the time being will you feel the presence of the Eternal existence?
And you find yourself within it the symphony. So where is your rooms here in it? But what happens is as soon as you come out of it of the transfer of of that attitude of your mind the Mind begins to work again when mind still is not stop so what is needed is for mind to start is to steal the mind as tal - to be stolen.
Heart has to be given the opportunity and that can be done only by loving the Lord intensely.
It is most intrinsic sense. Not the lovely call it the sex love of the life that the human being lives you see of love to love him is to love all he said
To love all is not loving him.
But you love me in all is loving me also.
So that's how it is. It's all words are in all these bubbles say that these are all words High thinking good is some philosophers were around him. And at that time they were saying about their own philosophy and all that versus all good. But you know my definition of philosophy simple thing made difficulties Philosophy for me, so I don't understand all these things all I want you is know one thing.
You all that you have to do is and fall back time. And again, this is unloving me. This is love me and look the rest of the business be looked after by him. That's what you tell us. But what happens is while loving him. We don't allow him to take the rest of the business in his own hands. We keep it in our hands wanting to progress wanting to advance want you to reach him, but you mean you shouldn't want with no nothing.
You shouldn't be Baba says you go and I come that's the only thing that is needed.
Who is that experience? Nobody is left experience. And that is the experience that we called void? Yeah, that's called me one.
Again, we have a deep science of you have noticed that your right. Good morning.
But is a jetty that's how you take positions on this occasion. We have a yeah, I know you're very very to use the knife here. Only. We allow him to use the knife. What is
That game you put your hand. Oh God a knife.
This is that jumping cruise and you give the knife to your best friend to do what the knife. You know, what the king but suppose if he's cockeyed as I am, but you don't give it to my friends. He cannot be your best friend.
That's right.
That's right. So we have to be very discreet in creating friendship, too.
So Tim, what was you said something is of you have a question you by the way be free to ask we are only for a day. So don't hesitate you can go on asking if I know I will change the subject. Can I change the subject? Yeah, and I asked about you. What about me? What about you? Personally? Yeah, what is it?
So I'll ask because I'm only here for a day. It's a bit rude. I was going to ask you if there were times when you found it very difficult to follow there were almost impossible when you felt that it wasn't worth the candle.
Yes, so yeah, but let down can you describe this?
And how did you how did you change from those from that City? I will not be doing Justice to your question because your question for me is rather wacky a bit, but it amounts to that never got I never was a time when I felt.
That it was not worth wife because never have I come to him.
But that question in my mind that it is worthwhile to follow him you follow so there cannot be any occasion that I must think about that. It's not worthwhile. So it's never occurred to you to doubt father. None of it. I'm just trying to I know I know what I am saying. Is this that never did it occurred to me that is never were not worthwhile to be with him because I didn't come with the intention that it is worthwhile to be with her. What?
Happened to you follow what I am saying. If you don't follow please ask me to repeat because you know my limitations. I am an illiterate person. I'm not an English Professor like you be indulgent with me and ask me to clarify so never was there a time without oh my what had happened is my coming to him was that he called me. He summoned me.
I don't know why but he summoned me to him, you know there have been occasions in the past. You'll even come to me. How did he summon you I mean which cabled me and says come to me. I want to see you come immediately and see me, so I came after all, you know his personality but following this lat least this little routine the rebellious person calls and you go my parents knew him and I
I had come to know of his name to my parents.
And I come to respect him and regard him having regards for him. Kindly good lovable person good or good person and that that's how it was that relationship was there.
Because my parents followed him and I was a student in college.
So he summoned me while I was on vacation in summertime and summon me to naturally I either one writes a letter or one calls out or One sensor cable television, so I was sent a telegram and I didn't take it. Seriously. This is come immediately and see me at my table. Sure. This is the place where it's trending. So well, I took the cable and put it in my pocket because I was had a hobby of
And summertime where I was we'll really really telling upon the delicate plants and plants were my hobby and I love them very much and they were really not the ordinary type but there are red planet's.
So I was trying to put them in shade and trying to take care good care of it and all that.
Motherhood that some messenger at come to a case a bungalow because she came she was very diligent because the ring the bell, you know, when the guns like the comments they used to come on cycling. They had bells on the cycle nowadays. We have Messengers. They don't have even bills. They just have that people in. Hey get out from you and come. Hey, is there anybody like that? So there is two very polite. It was British rule number.
Take some discipline and ring the bell and nice bill. So my mother heard that and came out. Did anybody come here any messenger? Look at that was the sign we used to see telegrams lot of tell you when my father was on a big toast. So say yes mother there was there is a telegram this is from bill. So I just took it out for my pocket or my hand it over.
No time even to talk about it all and the mother says what are you doing keep calling you immediately and that there is a train there now into a couple of hours. What are you trying to do as a mother? I can't leave immediately means it can be next day. What's this? That's the immediacy about it. He calls me. I'm going I'll go. Oh, yeah, I love it. I love it that this is what do you realize? He's calling you immediately.
So for the first time I had a tiff with my mother manga score, I remember that and she just turned back and walked away from him because she wanted me to leave everything and go immediately. That's how she believed in the Lord and that's how I took the Lord's words before I'm giving you a little difference that he's a tricky Lord whenever he comes in a midst as a human being he has the same.
Eighth of a human being to be tricky God is really very innocent as he is in his intrinsic being is guileless, but when he comes down as a human being be where I tell you you can play tricks with. Yes, Mac open confession to you all.
However, tricky you be as a human being but he is still more. So when I continued my work my mother and a half left me and all that.
I was but yeah, I was sad at heart that I displeased my mother because I love my mother very dearly. They're good parents do the trick that he played was that within our another messenger comes having the same contents, but from a different station, he sending another cable to come immediately and see me.
Well, I took I was working in the garden winds outside. So naturally I was the first one to accost that man tidbit and I saw the cave in the name of the station is different. So it's registered that he's traveling with somebody in the train from a different station is sending me cable. So my mother comes again a message again I said, yeah, I gave it away.
That was to blow her top off. So she said that what are you trying to do? He's calling you and there's no more time left. Don't you want to come inside and prepare yourself to go? This is a long distance from the village. That's how I came to him. I went to him I of course immediately left everything. I asked the gardener to attend to this and the I didn't like to leave the familiar.
Pots and plants and but some are other for the love of my mother I had to go and I did go and when I went there the interview was just this I will then I of course had to find out and report. It doesn't take much time to find out his whereabouts the point of people pointed. He's gettin that Bungalow go there done that street and I've been there when I entered he was there in
So looking at me, he was sitting on the floor and he was in silence. He looked at me and his gesture of finally feeling. Yeah, he was expecting and I came so he was happy to see me I said yes, I did come come inside and he embraced me and I love
Sit down I said this is
I want you to leave everything and come come away and be with me. Is it possible? I don't know what made me say that that's again another trick of the god man. So I comes from my lips these words why I said it I don't know still gets to this day. I don't know because I was that follower of meher Baba as people call the lover of meher Baba to fall in fall fall for him.
I think he said that by a blessings Anything is Possible.
So he was very happy with the answers is yeah, it kept me on the back sister. I want you to come on 1st August. This is me end of me. So come on 1st. August recess arrived arrived. It was on first order I said, yes.
He embraced me and I left that was the only male in immediacy about it all I don't know why you called me Father Justice. They say that he could have even if he is what he is that made me say that that anything is possible by you by your blessings and he could have even written to me and that would have been possible don't you think so, but it needed that Personal Touch. I think what I think so, so
That's what it is needed.
He can summon us you can ask us to do many things from that. He's in the seventh heaven, but sometimes he feels that personal touches are needed and therefore time and again, he comes in our midst as a human being although he's capable of being anything from wherever he be. And then as I am stepping out of the room he break his to me and says, I look back sit down. Is it possible for the whole family to dinner?
I can come by your blessing by your grace. Anything is Possible.
I didn't use the word blessings and sorry it was by your grace. Anything is possible. That was the word I used. So he again was happy system till all of them to come on faucet leave everything in Concord. That's how we are you doing very successful before, you know, whatever. I had studied the life of the Lord Jesus Christ and but never put to use those words.
Yes interpret for you, no more numbers because it was all by myself and him and you could just understand this. Yeah, because he had taught me to read is born when I was a child. That's the difference too long story. But this you know is to pay a visit to our place and you'd come as children will be there around him and all that and you want to play rough games, but he wanted us to be
It eventually I absconded I just he would wait I would keep him waiting and then all that in the evening, he will take me and then of course you'd make tell me stories on the board and that fascinated me and I will try to read faster and still faster. You move the fingers past. That's how I gather to read the board from a childhood without my knowing. So it was it was nothing. It didn't even occur to me that I am all by myself because I used to be with him like that when used to be
I got home late from there. I came here to meet him there Apollo. This is about a sec. Will you please get that letter that I wrote to the what's the name? Forget the name of Lady Marmalade images he knows so what happened is
That smelly eventually to cut the whole story short because you are only here for a few hours and team is waiting for another question. So I eventually all right. We all arrived at his place young people with him and he I'm still here.
But in between many years have passed by and to answer your question. I will read out a letter I wrote in reply to a person who asked me that question so that will put an end to the Curiosity of whatever it be.
And it went on that state of my mind was such to see what I said in the beginning. Pardon. So what what what I was saying is Alan that I didn't come to him with any thought of any gain or being rough bro being worthwhile to be by his side you follow what I'm saying is my logic was there at the time
Understanding was quite different if he called me and I came but why I came I didn't know that's not the case with most people is it helped with me but then what happened? Yes, not the case with most people you are lucky. So yeah, that's right. It is wonderful. That's true. What you saying is I'm blessed I should say not lucky. It is his grace that it keeps me to him and all that because there are many instances where people would want to come and they live with him.
And to prolong this day, it only needs his grace which happened to come out of my mouth. And yeah, he filled me with his grace to be with him. That's true. There's no doubt about it. So what I'm saying is that but that same person that we have heard all the stories of people the Lord having a some of them at least one or two examples are the mentioned give and come and follow me and that's the end of the whole story.
But it's not getting that also. It is the beginning what happened is but nobody tells us what happened to them. But I am here to share with you all the experiences and my mother said at the time when I returned home nestled, they were anxious. Why did he call? So what she said is how blessed we are that he owned his own called as instead of are having gone and clung to his wrist you see to hold on to him.
Perchance are gripped loose loosened and he might listen we might leave any abandoned. But now that he has called us. He has a hold over us. It is his grip over us. So there's no chance of Escape brother and she was overjoyed and all that and more so for her for her and for others, who were they I didn't know all this all this was something very strange to me.
Didn't register anything there and she's happy. I'm very happy because my parents are happy. My father says, well, I asked my father what has he to say, this is no all that has been spread and collected and gathered around the biggest state in that my father had created all the amenities and Facilities with including pools swimming pools and aviaries innately reason tennis courts, and this and that perfect garden, which was considered to the best of the god.
Aden in the whole city so many things were there and this is our collect all this for your happiness and Welfare, and if you find greater happiness at his feet, I am unhappy about it. That was the answer and that's how we all came but that is not the end of it. All that is the beginning and people think that well once you leave the world and you come on that's the end of it, but he doesn't want us to give the world. He wants us to be always in the world.
Not of it.
This is the first time he has made it very clear to us.
So on soon after that, of course, we thought that we are not the world and all that and became just with a little bit in world of heart in what you call the Dear Old Mattress knowledge so and a pair of clothes and that was also and he thought that when that's the end of the world worldly life, but long four separate occasions
Made us create a new home and that was following him.
When we are had our home of her parents, it was following ourselves. Now this he wanted us to establish a home and live in it.
And that was following him. Although we were householders brothers and sisters went to schools and colleges and did this and is to go to marketing for marketing. We have to pay the rent and get paid the taxes this that and all that but doing for whom doing for God.
There's a world of difference doing for oneself and being for him doing for oneself is living.
That's how for four times for different occasions and he would himself go with me in order to find another house another Cottage to see that my family is properly housed in it.
Thoughts never occurred in my mind at the Times. What is this nonsense going on? He left made us leave the world world are we had our established home and all that? What does he want us to be back in home his grace?
Such things never occur. But what happened is the doubts occurred in different ways and that is depicted here mind is a very tricky thing human beings such as Alan, you know, we all know but we never try to share with others. We are just shy of a trickiness read read what it is. So this will give you an idea about my life with letters dated December 7th 1977.
My dear Medi right there sweet letter of November 23rd. This is he's a professor in the wrong here on Terra your sweet letter of November 23rd touched my heart deeply and I am grateful to beloved Baba for giving us such arches yours to warm our hearts with the beauty of his love that he has poured into yours.
By now hundreds of people have asked me. How do I believe Baba is God and you're asking the same question is nothing surprising. My simple answer is I believe Baba is God because he is God, but you have also asked me how do I believe him to be God? Well, it took my mind to accept him. As God does more than 40 years and the last
Thirty years were spent almost at his feet making my mind hold on to him to his Donham sometimes with both hands. Although my mind was bombarded constantly with and by his statements. I am God in human form. I am the ancient one. I am the god man. I am the highest of the high. I am infinite Consciousness. I am infinite and eternal existence.
Existence I am infinite power knowledge Bliss. I am the lowest of the low and the highest of the high I am I am I am and I am in spite of it all and in spite of his overwhelming physical presence my mind my stubborn and stupid mine interrogated Within Me is he that is he that such his mind which is
So his creation to keep going his game of hide and seek it. Is he who hides and it is he who seeks and is eventually sought and found he is Medi is the seeker and the disciple and the lover and he's in search of the Beloved. He remains hidden behind maybe or in other words. He himself. Where is the veil of Medi and plays the Divine game of hide-and-seek?
Seat when he sheds the veil Medi he reveals himself and proclaims himself. I am God. So my very dear midi as long as he continues to identify himself as midi you as midi stand no chance of experiencing beloved Baba's godhood. Hence beloved Baba has exhorted us saying God is infinite.
Eternal existence and he is never lost therefore God cannot be found how ridiculous it is to find something or someone that has never lost. So stop trying to find God he can never be found for he is never lost what indeed is needed is to Lose Yourself and God continues to be imminent.
Beloved Baba has comforted us so often by wanting us to be determined to be his once we remain determined to be his and completely Depend and rely on his grace and compassion. He takes over from us the process of unveiling himself. So be ever determined to be his be childlike and depend upon his compassion and Grace.
Entirely and allow him to wind up his game of hide and seek within you.
You asked me whether I have the experience of his godhood and my answer is then that I do not have this experience, but I believe in his godhood and his being the ancient one best for you is that you visit us here often and allow us the pleasure of your company so that you may show that by your questioning. We will remain all the more in his company.
Your cherished everything it is from this level with the question I had for you today something. That's all. I've been thinking having radius and come with that question. I was thinking I wish that everyone would let me read that letter I'll because it answers all the questions you've been asking that question tells the story.
Is a person is he who loves Baba he has begun to love was in the states. Then he went back you see on his post. He is a worker there and genuinely ask these questions. He has visited twice tries here that is like that every time you'd say I you know, my role was to interpret his gestures to read his board and public.
Address system is there in my hands and I am reading his board or gestures and say meher. Baba says that he is God in human form mind. I would say it loudly but nobody knew what's happening within you mind immediately interrupted. You see that before when what happens to read to his board and he said he would say aye I am in the beginning in the beginning.
Us you see when he used to teach us to read his board. He did that as a child and I was but later on you see he would use his gestures finger gestures and his assertions were so eloquent that one even you would follow what he's saying. This it yeah.
I'd like a typist also composed words of other languages becoming some boards of Marat. He would come in or Hindi enough Gujarati. Right? Shy
Very quick, but he was so quick and so great book. There's no place like this.
Please leave a rating from we were on that side of the board. Yeah, I could be very casual.
Take pains to make us feel at home with them so that when we were playing the cards or any game with it that the man.
Of the other side with man. She looks like God man. There was more emphasis on demand and going to be totally immersed in that aspect of really enjoy ourselves even pointing out to him that he was cheating and then you would do it again to show as we couldn't catch him out anyway, and at the end of business people do mind us. Don't forget I'm God.
I'm going to be remember to see the Scott Devitt take pains to show that he was may be received very tricky, but I had to come into that mind reading Hall one morning. Barbara was seated here and the main man delivers treated before him and Barbara rose. Look.
Looking weak enough well, and so I better go to the women's side earlier for luncheon and to retire to my room to rest. So I came over at that time for something and I saw this happening. I saw Baba looking small frail.
My mom is from Bob Adams big salty. And when we click back, there are certain incidents at this AI when we set this and this happened probably be so big because we didn't realize at the time is it and there are moments when we look back on and we realize how small about other twelve frail. So when I came in that is how Papa help and he said,
Health is not at all. Good. I want to go sooner that to retire. So immediately Emma jumped up and Francis and they both came to him one to the right one to the left to code up his hand to help lift it up. So that people can go over to be in the literature. They would carry him. So Francis Scott the left hand arish cover right hand and
I was just about to lift him up supporting upholding and bottles to looking play and week and I saw this happening just a finger but back up and was in their hands imperceptible. And when it is that they almost hover over them and over each other the kind of Faith from falling on and
Into the arm of the chair the other but only for the actual country just for a moment and then this to that and Frances was so amazed and he said oh bother you are twinkle in his eye. He said don't forget it.
Isn't there a story where after some seclusion work or something when he had been fasting for a long time? Also, he got the mandolin a line and they tried to push him in like that was only use yeah a whole line of monthly won't respond to just make him budge from the seat. They didn't the try the best people.
So that's the strength. You see that he exhibited in this in to teach ask children. You know, we were young. What happened to Ireland. Where is he, you know the story.
Giving that shown in those times when he said all right, they can all come.
That was an opportunity to take it because of the end of it and the - Summer's over which we look forward to the household Monday. Look forward to the end of the deception. You know, we were all so selfish but and survival is open the door that has opened a tiny bit against upset whenever his double together before introduction, but when it was over and he would be coming into the room.
Then we had our Baba and changing its just hired arranging for giving into my home. So then after that if somebody says a message that someone was late and they would love to see you Barbara. Just one minute. Oh
So anyway, when they always nervous before him and among them was Taylor Taylor as The observed told us who have developed before all nationalities of all card slots. So among the doctors and the lawyers businessmen and and
And he was totally one of us and I have to show something I had to do it with my own hand. We actually we are so on the other side.
And he says, you know look at the bottom of the step whenever Simon told of his heart's desire, you know, take something with my own hands. I want to make a coat on it. I want to serve a culture that and every sort of course, actually, I think a message was sent and came back and said, yes, you could do it so ever so well you will need the measurements.
You are so deep inside an indignant measurements me. Have you heard my name before? I only have to take one look at a person and I know that oh, what about the color and just allow me to do it and went and told us later that we just cut the material.
All right by hand starting the night on the bait is done the argument came and its really except it was a shot. Anyway, when you go to Baba and Baba tried it on at night Chris. It was so big Either Way Beyond.
He kept saying, but bother you such a fan of Taylor, bye-bye.
Anyway, because of that excuse Baba uses also there so many purposes served in this that it does Office of the zapper for the man to see the tailor to see bottle because that tourniquet above put it on but I just really couldn't believe it and then he said that I first told us he looks so be so pleased.
Hot this hope would be to tight fit. That's the only thing that one but then be so bad. I guess maybe came about that.
What is your question more Robert on the first story that mind hole where we just move the finger and you and Frances. Yeah, what were your thoughts at that time? Nothing good thoughts were to just help him out from the seat. You know, he met with an accident.
And that was after the second accident where his hip joint got busted and it was not easy for him even to get a from the trail. So when he desired to leave the manly Hall, we've got him a lift a little hand make him stand up and they lift chair will be brought there and help him become and then make him sit on the lips a little this is the case that he used just a lot of thoughts the thoughts would be there but
But once we did have a thought both of us because see that handles are there there will be one person holding the end to bars. And in the front there will be two persons holding the chain. So what we had noticed was virtually can't hold with two hands one has to hold it with one right hand the other on the left hand. So that's how transition myself will hold Francis was not that old as people.
Seen him now. He was very active and strong and he's still strong but was not years ago. So one day so happened. We still need to register certain things while lift lifting him and take him there and bring him here now that so one day it was abnormally a thing that is to be registered. And that was that simultaneously we both felt that he was
Was very light and average weight was there and all of a sudden we were shoulders have to balance the weight all of a sudden that came awake is very heavy weight in on the chair from where did it come so far as looked at me and I looked at him. That was the only thought that we had and we just exchanged this process is what's this you notice that yes, we have been noticing I said, yes, I have been noticing but this
Abnormal awake you see that's the only thought we have but the thing is Robert to us now while we talk about it while we reminisce but at the time his presence is so overwhelmingly these these these thoughts which are pertinent no doubt, but they they were straight thoughts for us. They really dude sometimes even if they come we wouldn't be any apply.
Significance to these things, but the register sometimes you see once in a while. His presence was overwhelming to be with him is enough and to carry out his behest as I told you all whatever it is his grace is that's the thing.
Eric's you remember the day that Duncan died?
He died at will play a villain place the he dies in a car Tuesday's. Yes. I don't want me after bubble wrap the body. Do you remember that day or the events of that day? No, the only thing that was prior to his death he had comes here. He had paid a visit to bomb day and he came to my cabin the cabin University that the chair here. It is his camp chairs. That is the chair there so he came and sat down. He used to smoke.
Smoke a pipe or cigars and he always used to have Nescafe with him. I don't know he got wedded to these two things because he couldn't although he stayed with us for so long and he mastered our languages and all that but he could not develop the taste engine taste. He could not stand the chilies and the purple that we use the amount of children paper because
Done before because of a lot of smoking and coffee drinking and all that. See you sad the smoking and all that. He said just before he died. He said this means some days before he died. He's I met him here, but the last day I don't know anything about it, but he never stayed here. He is used to stay there. But I definitely remember that he comes there and we have a chat and all that and there is something some letter that has come of some Baba lover somewhere. I
Get now and I said Dawn we should call him Dawn Dawn hear this and I read out that some experience there and he was smoking and he was hearing and for the first time after a life with him from 1939 to 1969 30 years for the first time. He spoke out.
At least my hearing I vividly remember the day when I met him first, that's what he said. He he wouldn't speak out. You see was you know English people are very conservative didn't want to speak out thinking they keep to themselves very reticent. Yeah, and it would consider to be not a ticket, you know to speak out openly right now as I speak our receipt root for them.
Please be indulgent if I like that so he speaks out now and he's reminiscing. Yeah, that was the day he did this Vivid in my memory.
I said what is the day which day?
The first day that will and Mary took me really because will who took me to Baba I was a student in the Medical College. He was studying medicine he gave a surgeon eventually and brother must have gone to England for the first day and they had told him about Baba will and Mary Beckett. I don't know whether you're a heard the name willing me the Ancients the archangels above us by wish to call them.
So and it led me to his room and I entered and I don't know what happened.
All I saw was I didn't see Baba. All I saw was the whole room was just sitting bright light in it was it was just total brightness. That's all and in that brightness. I was standing there not noticing anything except the brightness and my knees began to quick and I was
Not study at all. I didn't know what happened. I don't know why or how I found myself outside the room, but I used to walk. I am starving walking the street, but I was out of mine. Well myself is it lasted for about 10-15 days and that Vivid In My Memory my first visit meeting with him was not seeing Mary bother the seeing what he really is. That's what he told me.
Where do you get this inevitable speak out? And yeah.
About Duncan experience we call them done because the first time he was asked his name by Kaka Bhatia interesting William like the English would do that in God's name, don't you?
I was talking about the how would the doctrines were over?
David coming
To the beach the second house code and the residents monthly and at that time you wanted everybody to me everybody. I'm going to Prasad what come for the option to leave and he was to have the best have they all gone. There is everybody gone again and again so they become time once in a while when I laugh
Then it arrival would be reported and they would beg please we have waited for this was held on such and such happened and this happened to the train and this happened to the pong game. And for some reason or other he couldn't get there in time. You have Barbara's lashes and the whole Congregation of the JavaScript before him. So the monthly didn't want Baba just said, but they had to remove to in the end some messages coming through someone.
And it would reach back. So the women.
But then I also take the side of the rather who was learning so much more about them than if we didn't know when bubble would give - enables. All right, so it would ask if it wasn't on if it was removed to just wipe off the perspiration from the long hours of being there. So he would have a son and then you'll be walking about to the minimum wage side usually
Probably with his hand on marathon and then go ahead and take over and be with him and he would ask for the goddess, but the pink Garnet the Garland now all the gardens that were office you baba and we put around his neck when it would reach up to here are it would remove the whole lot and also keep are should keep jabbing by the forehead.
All the flowers of Garland's death and bubbled except the garden because ever an expression of that love for him. It's sometimes a child or a tiny woman couldn't reach over to put the Garland on bad of may help them. So that is all this but each year. There were also some which we kept it together not the fresh flowers. They were made of
Phelps are our paper or cloth material that could be put that cash. I remember but we couldn't find it at the short notice that if I wanted to do it quick and get it over with and if the mother of God, where's my God the garden and this is you look beautiful. You know, where is it? It's all right, darling.
All of himself half of put it on like it put on a scarf and he went over to the men's side are dashing claim back it up. Now that is explained explained by bother. They did not understand and Bubba having open heart a crack for that occasion when I was lot of the Victorian it wasn't shut up.
Yes right away. So when he was going back for one individuals the force of it would be too much.
So the process has to be broken or distracted so naturally see what chemicals was I bored.
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