Lyn Ott
Meher Baba's Instruction on canvas.
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Being an artist. I was amazed at one of phyllis's first jobs in New York City. This is a secret is the tell us with a fashion designer in New York City and I like that very much but it was amazing even more is that Phyllis also was a fashion model at that time, and I have a rare photograph of Philip.
To Bubba through a beautiful group of women who are working in New York City with Princess Marina. Matchabelli, Dean Tolstoy and kitty and Elizabeth were also there and Phyllis move in and live with these beautiful bubble people.
And also waited nine years to meet baba baba came out of the new life phase and Monash phase immediately after that King to the West that is determined Phyllis.
We also have the latest copies of the Awakening Magazine with us Tom has those in the back table. And without further Ado. I will say here's fellas.
Maybe this is my last shift they burned out on Phyllis. So so I feel very lucky to be invited again. And as always, I don't know what I've said before and I said how many here have this their first visit and I first hearing a baba more or less.
That's the Hani it's always nice to know how many people are hearing about a fit about Baba just as a new person coming to Baba.
I was reminded by someone of my appearance on the Joe Pyne show where he was attracted to me because I had The Sensational opening phrase that I used on the TV show. I have met God in human form.
And I was just thinking of that astounding fact I can't get used to it myself that I actually met God in human form. I'm just beginning at the top of memories and I think I would like to share memories with you going into the philosophy of Bob I think is it's okay, but it's like the second generation from actually meeting Bob and feeling Bob and the Heart.
Call if you do.
Bob is said something interesting that realization comes when the mind and the heart are balanced. So just having heart or just having mine is not enough and Darwin Shaw had an experience of that one time. It was very impressive to me. He actually felt his mind coming down and his heart coming up and kind of meeting and
Blending and feeling God that way that in creation. We're kind of split between mind and heart and you find that in your own life and assemblies, you're going toward the mine things and you're going to the heart things and for many of us, especially in the Kali Yuga, it's hard to balance those two things.
In Bobby, you see the perfect balanced person. He's the example of the ultimate in creation. And in him, there's the balance between the human and the Divine So when you say you meet God in human form, it is just the most fantastic thing that nature produces. The creation produces God is God is one thing and man is man is one thing but God as man
That is our destiny. That is our goal.
And how did it actually seemed?
So I think sometimes you got more of a glimpse of Bob as in the Divine side and some of the very human set before I met Bob, of course, I had not seen him in the body, but I still had some of the glimpses of his Human Side through letters and through cables through the memories of these women whom I stayed with but I really wasn't prepared for that very very Human Side.
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I first began with an experience of father inwardly that he gave me much to encourage me. I'm sure through the years of waiting and it was what you'd call a spiritual experience a mystical experience. I may have described it once before but as Masters do is Avatar. Does sometimes give you a glimpse.
On the path that is very very tremendous. I had heard of Baba through these women I've listened to their stories, but and I'd accepted mentally that he was God in human form. But in this experience I had
I've described it sort of like a fantasy but it was a real experience. I was traveling on a very very now like a thread of life. And on one side. There is very beautiful landscape, you know, just beautiful and the other side there was a dark shadowy kind of threatening landscape on the left side right side was beautiful and I walk and I walk and I walk and there is Bob at the
And I embrace father. This was a real inner meeting with Fab. It wasn't a dream thing. It was like a real experience and at that very very second that I embraced Baba. I felt his divinity.
It's just a fraction of a second of that Divinity about that father shot that I experienced that in such a way. I never experienced that height of his divinity again as that first experience before I ever met him physically and it's like body says the conviction comes from that experience that
Beyond the mind really I've never could never doubt that Baba is God but then many years went by till I actually met Baba and that was a whole different thing. I've waited and waited Baba came and 52 to Myrtle Beach and you can imagine the tension through the years because every every six months or something a letter would come I'm coming to the United States. I'm this I'm that I'm going to break.
I found us and came to New Life all those things. You can go back and read the family letters it was.
Tension let down tension. Let them bother Maya that he does finally came the day and that was me 10th 1952 and a road into the center.
And it was just like the center of the universe. It was really A peculiar Stillness of nature.
You felt it all the way if probably a few or someone who could see if it see that all nature focus on that one point where bottle was in Residence and a little hot the little Lantern Cavern.
And there was Bob on the steps.
And my first glimpse of him as a man, but those eyes.
Looked at me.
I can't describe that look of Love of recognition of total acceptance held out his arms and embraced father and then he sat down I said down and I think that mayor Jim was in there, but I don't remember reading his alphabet boy.
And he first asked do you love me? That's father's first question to you if you see him, do you love me? And I said yes Father.
And he said, you know where that love is coming from and the love swept from his heart invisibly like this into my heart and back again and round and round it just incredible feeling and so I knew that my love for him was just my feeling that current going through and I felt that that was between me and Bob at that moment, but I felt it with people with other people like I feel it today.
Where I just sit just bodies out there, but we're all is one love going back and forth.
And which you are identity just dissolves.
And that's that was my actual physical meeting Lisa.
Then I spent a whole week there with him. And that's where I got to see The Human Side the Divinity I had experienced in this inner experience.
And The Human Side was what I slowly got to know although I heard, you know so much about him through.
The women Mandalay that I was very lucky to be with.
The first thing was Barber gesturing like this and I knew it meant his heart was mayor go and meet Mara and that is the very very most human side of father and it has his Divine side to his feminine counterpart who represents the World Maya the cosmos illusion and also his own personal beloved and this film if it's working.
Is it working Bruce? Right? It's a very rare film that's never been shown. It is of Mayor and vulva. It's an intimate film.
And I hope you appreciate what that means. It is an intimate family father in there.
And it's you. I haven't seen it myself since it came from the lab. So I'm as excited as you to say it.
Meeting mayor. It was just the second privilege after meeting bhava. And by the way, you all still have that wonderful privilege now to be over there in Indian to meet Bob as beloved Mara and I had heard so much about her from the women who had lived with her in India.
I won't go into her story, but she had been kept in very very deep seclusion. Even when I first heard of her Elizabeth or Marina would give me a photo of Mayor and say how keep it don't show it to anyone. We're never allowed to have it out and especially where a man could see it and all that person has changed, but it was like it was this precious special thing to even hear about her.
Much less, you know communicate with her.
So that was the second privilege and to see Baba with her.
That first week in 52 was at was something I'll never forget because I did not see them that way again after the accident things changed. She had a very severe accident with Baba as you all know and then in India in 62, it was different. She didn't come to the United States again after that but to see the love between them to see her reflection of Bob is love is a
Reflection of his a perfect balance. I notice you all know Bob is complete and himself avatars completed himself.
But that was a very very special thing in my life to have shared that even that.
Much of their company.
It was a very very wonderful privilege.
So that was The Human Side of Baba and know that humans out of Baba was a sense of humor you hear about but you don't know what it really is and when you're the butt of a joke of Baba's that's something you know, very unique and one day we were sitting there and baubles going on and everybody this is we had the privilege of being with Bob and the women they retire sir and I was doing it I say
If I was imitating my nervous and he doesn't so sweetly when he imitates you and makes fun of some little trick you have is so delightful another time. It happened to me, but I there was a moment there of opened a May 17th when people had a chance to see Bob in the barn and the barn when you when Bob is at the end of that Barn in Myrtle Beach and you're walking alone across
To Bob at the end. It just seems like you're crossing the Mojave Desert or something. It just seems like ages. Yeah, so I was and everyone I heard laughter behind me and Bob is smiling and he was imitating the way I was walking, you know, I can't describe it. But I was a perfect mimic a is just a world's greatest actor. For example, when he told the story mom, sorry and a snake but you probably
We've all heard about how she wakes with a Cobra on her chest Bob. It did the snake, you know the size and they did Mom sorry and just to see him act out anything. So his sense of humor is so delightful.
And he always appreciate humor and others and
About things you wouldn't think he'd be humorous about like an 62 he brought out this the chart of the four Journeys with broader Hatton Francis Ravis and very solemnly goes through the whole thing. And it's from God speaks. And Bobby said, do you understand it? Yes, one particular person Francis answered for all of us and Francis as long as obvious is I don't either
I think used humor to relax you to make you feel at ease and that was another wonderful human side of Baba that he could make you feel wherever we were with him relaxed. It is not nervous. You think you're going to be in the presence of God, you can imagine you can like this all your background or non background of religion. Yeah, and somehow Bob is sense of humor and his
Delight and little things he I can't remember so many of them, but he enjoyed his Universe a little quirks and funny things that would happen.
And his noticing of tiny details of people was also very very unique. I hadn't expected that. Every tiny thing would be noticed by the one time you looked at me like this, but when my hair was messy get it straight, you know, you know, very very subtle. You just wonderful little touches about so day after day we learn Bob has Humanity
And his physical suffering was very real. Even the heat in Myrtle Beach, you know, we saw awful. Yeah drench in forestry and Baba's was hot and sweated like the rest of us, but unlike the rest of this beautiful perfume around and I was lucky I got his clothes to wash he handed me these clothes.
I couldn't believe they're supposed to be dirty clothes.
It smells so Divine. I went around everybody that smell, you know was like today Peter took me to the Holiday Inn large or whatever it is where we were with powder and I showed him the room where Baba was and there's a balcony above it. We used to hang there. At least I did an Adele and a few others and this incredible perfect would come up from Bobby's Room 1
Layer below and I took to come smell it and there were no flowers around. They're worthless. You know, any person power of you would come and for a pretty soon a whole bunch of us were you know, so it wasn't one of those astral things it was real. So that was another human Divine. I don't know side a father.
Another thing about Baba was his taking his place down on the earth with us suffering always small humiliation of ordinary life. I again think of one at the Sufi Center we visited it with Rasheeda. That was the old substantive small song about it called me along which is kind and there was an elevated they are a very grumpy elevator.
Anyway
Someone came down in the elevator. We were waiting to go up. I'll have a little now hauling and this man got out of the elevator. I'd like people do in this city or anywhere paid no attention to what are we just brushed by almost knock Bob it down didn't look at him didn't look at any at that. First of all waiting for an elevator God waiting for an elevator and then someone just walked in and just just being with Baba like that.
In those funny little situations are waiting in an airport or having to go to the bathroom because we waited an hour and a half Baba. This is in Wilmington Airport. And of course those were the the days before these things are changed. There were two bathrooms black and white. So I see Bobby get up go to the bathroom and he takes one look at the black and the white so I like to know and he goes in the black time and you know,
No, funny things like that human side of Baba God interacting with just smile or everywhere on the plane. We were on the plane and 56 from Wilmington to Los Angeles a Night Flight and Bob and never slept. You know, we always heard Bob and never slept but when you're on the plane with him, everybody has his Heroes
And there was Bob one little night light over him.
And he never slept just doesn't sleep but you know sleep is only for the non realized when you realize you don't sleep because you have no mind as Bob is explained sleep the Mind needs sleep. Not the body your mind can't take the constant pressure of sanskaras of Impressions. You have to stop and go into the beyond beyond State. Otherwise you couldn't take it. But once you realize you are out of Illusion and
You can take the unbroken Bliss and I'll take it anytime. But anyway, these little little human things body would come out like a
In the morning, but Baba slept two minutes three minutes imagine that after its full day and doing his Universal work everywhere, but plus being with us Baba would sit there many times and say while I'm sitting here with you. I'm working all over the universe.
So you're just this peculiar blend of God and man that nobody you know, theologians crack their skulls over for 3,000 years there. It was you were sitting there right with it. And that was very impressive the balance. The balance is say of his Consciousness. You know, it's a theory the mind in the heart but to see Baba manifested so easily
He knew every thought of every person there plus the whole universe he would show in any thousand of ways. They knew your innermost feeling and thought things that you didn't know about yourself.
Anybody who had a mood or something speak up? What are you thinking about if you wanted to do that or he'd work out something between you without words without even any seemingly really to glance at you, but you know that you were communicating and that was a miracle because it happened with three in the room or 10,000 people at 62 Dasha that you are sitting there with all those people and he knew right there what you were and what you were thinking. You're probably
Ruin your thing. And you know the Universe Online Baba said one time just spontaneously said
I know everything everything comes to my knowledge comes to me automatically and you think about it. Just like your eyes automatically Focus the whole thing. You don't really struggle to see so this infinite knowledge comes to him, which is totally different from Saints Yogi's anybody that you know, sweat and strain to find out something. It's just all automatic for him.
And he would never show off at all. That was to me the most face. He has these incredible Universal Consciousness Universal body and for mine dollars Divinity things.
Not even by a ripple of his skin when he just show off any of that except for fun sometimes.
Like we were sitting in the garden after the accident and displacing Scarsdale any kind of twinkled his eyes and tapped out this message, but winterfell's it comes sure enough, you know that five minutes later. They drive in spontaneously spontaneously, they showed up everybody tried to get in on the ACT with which you could just think up any scheme to be with lava was okay, you know
I have to deliver a letter and you had another vitamin for him and you know anything and we all got very clever at thinking of waste.
I'm a terrible sower. I'm a terrible cook and terrible everything but right away, I volunteered, you know, I'll clean up the kitchen I'd so Bob is Todd Ray, you know anything and so we got
Kitty or whoever was in traction. Oh, yeah, fine do it, you know. So the first one offered to God it's so then we got a little crew together barrel and Adele We all volunteered to this something.
So at the crack of dawn and Bob is house and Myrtle Beach. We all assembled to be instantly ready to mend Baba Sondra boiling water for tea or whatever anything with you think that's the floor clean the ice and then Bob would come out of his bedroom. I'm just rambling now. Shut me up if I'm just sharing my memories. Bob would come out of his bedroom.
In the morning there at Myrtle Beach and he'd see us all there in the kitchen about five girls. And he was so tickled. We were there that we cooked up a reason to get in there in his house while arresting people were snoring away in their cabins. So then we got a hug in the morning and how this means. How did you sleep so to share valve is life like that like the Mandalay have or the women model even more intimately.
And I'm so glad my mother chose or whatever these jeans at home woman in this life. Great as you got more about me say holiday intimate re for women, but you know all the intimate part of power sharing with him in his home there Myrtle Beach and other places for Sunday.
And when it comes again, I don't know I'll think about it, but I think being a woman is great.
And
That was the human and divine together side of father.
And I was thinking
Other things about father that were very impressive.
One was his Beauty now. I met him in 52 and he would already be about 5058 I guess.
And this was before the accident and this one time I saw him. I do remember visually how gorgeous father looks even at that thing.
He was sitting in the lagoon cabin it was.
Sunset some has a light is just the Golden Light of a sunset. His hair was moves. His profile was not it was perfect then before the accident and you just I mean beauty is God's work. It does draw you you you know, how picture Bob I probably I don't know how many people have just come to Bob of his a picture. There's something about that total manifestation in
Maya in the human body and the Flesh and they say, you know in mystical circles it takes generations of genes in a family of Avatar family to get it all together so that the Avatar has this incredible spiritual Beauty physical spiritual food that Baba had and that he had as Jesus and would an offer on the different racial types that all is that beautiful I've seen
Thinking that today we were in Gump's looking at all these gorgeous things and they have this beautiful Buddhist thing and whatever the artist was. Nobody knows what the Buddha really looks like, but they get that feeling of beauty that attracts.
And his voice. I know Mara and she has a beautiful voice said that Bob is voice was exceptionally beautiful and she almost says it with tears in her eyes for them. You say you heard father speak and who heard him sing. They you know, they remembered that and they I think they could understand what that sacrifice of giving up that voice.
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It was a tremendous sacrifice in many many levels to not speak.
And of course they have heard his beautiful voice get appreciate that silence.
So Bob ahead Beauty his motions. I know Margaret.
Disciples of ballet teacher parks along said Bob had a perfect spine. Is that right person?
Carla had perfect spine and she knows what a perfect spine. Yeah. There's that one movie 36 movie. We bother you can see and they all told me how beautiful Bible was in the early days before, you know, physical handicaps clean.
He had the most Exquisite feet even to the end and that's where I cheated a little you know, I knew that in the new life phase when we weren't allowed to touch Bowers, so I went out and I bought some sandals.
And I got the right size. I don't know very intuitive. And so Bob, let me put them on so I could touch us. Oh, it's a little cheap. Yeah. It's like I used to send him cards. We weren't allowed to write her. So I just sent a Father's Day card Valentine birthdays Father's Day card anything.
Or pictures I sent pictures of our group just photographs, you know, nothing no explanation. You just a fucking and if I would Point like this one pointed at Peter you didn't seem to mind any of those. It's like, you know the game of Krishna and the gopis you kind of cheat a little to get father's attention.
So that was like playing games as into book will be tied you if you step over a certain etiquette line. I saw some people do that.
It's just you have you have to sharpen your intuition and your sensitivity you play a game of love, but you don't presume either, you know.
So I'm waiting to play the game again. I wish that 700 and hurry up. Oh Alexis and those women mom's away helped me so much. I heard so much about Baba beforehand how you don't ask him questions. You don't suggest well Bob. I think this would be better, you know all kinds of things. I was very very grateful for that because it I'm sure I avoided some trouble and got into other trouble. Sure.
Baba loves to stir up since care. And that is another thing God alone here a man alone here. But God man combines himself the Opposites of Maya. So you also see a positive and negative side to bother but in a Divine sense so father wasn't always the love Giver. He also was Stern he could be angry and disapprove.
And all but in a way that you can't imagine it has no sense care and of anger or ego. So your first experience of Baba being displeased with him is another whole story from the love side and you accept that too as the balance the God and then and the balance of Maya and Divinity there. It's just a subject, you know, you could go into great mystical depths about
Balance there is perfect.
And of course if you don't appreciate who Baba is then you would get upset by his negativity apparently anything or indifference. That was another thing all of those women and men had to go through somewhere sometime. Bob is indifference. I think Margaret her she'll tell her story and her book by the way. It's just come out.
The dance of life
Tell the story When Baba for no reason and never explained said to her this is when she was living with the women now in the ashram in India after many years. I don't want to see you when I come here. I don't want to see your face.
No reason or he would come to visit the women's action and she would have to disappear. Hi this one on for months, right? That's a long time. Yes. She said that was a very very hardest tongue. I can't imagine there was no explanation. Just had to suffer through that body went through it. You've probably all heard eyes.
How he would come with the male 2 there's ad and Bible say who is that man at the door or then there was wrong. No who?
For quite a few years was always scolded by bother, you know seems like nothing she could do right for Baba and she'd just be in tears. Now. You've been trying. Oh, she's a real strong lady. You know, I heard it break down in tears. I find the ship ride to bomb Isis prop. I can't take it anymore. Send me away. I can't take it anymore.
And then pop a quick but it's like that grinding thing that what you might save us a negative side of five of working on your since cares positive and negative.
Which of course any religion tells you that God has those sides both sides.
Shiva Vishnu Brahma ng+ and a and I think that's something lacking and the at least Orthodox Christianity that is thrown at us. Sometimes God is owning the nice things, you know, loving father, but the father can be Stern and disappointment to there is a perfect balance.
I'm just trying to think of the elements of father to share with you.
There was barbers.
Great.
Cosmic mind giving us teaching we're sometimes forget that in the Bible group for so oriented toward father in love.
And our inner connection and our day-to-day working with him on our sincere as but he has presented to the world and incredible cosmology incredible metaphysics. It's so condensed. It's like, you know some very condensed.
Sarah for Liquidators potency of food for mankind for the mind of mankind and its I always say back A Book Like god sakes. It's like a time bomb ticking away in the life of mankind and they creativity that it will stimulate in all branches of human knowledge psychology science.
Anything story of evolution the clarification of religious quarrels that have been going on. I mean, I've been recently going back and studying some Buddhist metaphysics and oh they can get so muddled up even though it started out okay or Christianity or Judaism. I'm these points that have baffled man for so long and Bob it just slips through them and God speaks. You really get to the nitty-gritty. I mean, it's incredible.
Lives there and the discourses and God speaks and some of the other places where Bob why many places including the back or something like that where Baba has laid out such intricate fantastic detail and also has opened up as you know, most teaching was a secret Doctrine even in religious groups to serve them. It had to be a disciple had to be initiated you do this that and the other
Other to come to these inner teachings
And ideas of inner life at the path and but there it is all out. And this course is for five bucks or God speaks or whatever it is. Now, I received credible and the descriptions of the cosmic hierarchy of the Plains of the steps and the path. It's just incredible what's available there very very compact form. We kind of are so used to it. You don't see how revolutionary it is.
When you see intellectuals out there struggling to come to one little small bit, for example theory of evolution wired characteristics or something and you see how Baba says a sanskaras and their Impressions and so on explains the whole thing.
It's fantastic to me. I appreciate that a lot. Although it's Bobby. You totally forget all that and I think of the days we spent with Bob and you want you think now I'd love to Noodle some of these questions if father on some of the points, but actually, you know, there's still a hook right folks, but I think Bob is just like Bob is silence is very very impressive at a time in
Mankind's life I have always communicative means Electronic media of TV radio tapes records movies and Bob of actually stayed out of all of them right scepter of few films and
The same way
We have some of these.
Things that we have not yet shared with Father his thoughts and the book are being kept.
Till a point in history where we will appreciate them.
And some of the turmoil we've been going through now on how to relate to Baba.
The inner-directed and the other direction and all that the book will probably come at some point which will break the not that
I wouldn't say just the Bible well, but the whole world which we're somewhere near the Hub. Hopefully, yeah, you know, we'll get into conflicts and this I feel the book will come at just that moment where it'll just be very very critical and helped us a great deal.
I think it's perfectly time. It's not an accident that we don't have it at this moment. Anyway, I'm rambling along but my last glimpse of fava above gave me you can't appreciate me me. How incredible it is to have an audience alone with Baba. We had a chance in May May the 2nd day by met father.
The few of us, who were there were invited to be all alone with Ava Nome on the way in the room.
And I have that and Baba slowly tapped on himself apart, but you have any questions and actually at that point my mind went completely blank.
And then bother said those who ask for nothing get everything for just you know, I left out the blank mine was very useful, but I had another chance like that a private interview is Baba that was in 62 by chance have funny things work out.
That was the first day or second day. We were there.
I'm officially Baba. We're going to see him the next day and for precisely and so the previous day mayor G is always in charge of banking and whatnot. We were all went in the Huddle where all Shepherd it to the bank to change rupees which is so ridiculous. And in the you know, it takes about an hour for them to change five dollars into 10 rupee on here. We were all lined up 200 people so in on and on and while I was in that bank I felt so
I didn't like it. I knew I should be somewhere else sure enough. I soon as I get my stupid rupees. I jumped out of the bank and I grabbed a cab somehow and rushed back for this little hotel. And there in the little box was a tiny piece of paper and I open it up and it was
Baba wants to see you. Oh at ahead of time on it like 10 o'clock. And this was like a lever and I tell you it's just cast like the thank you me miss something like my heart was my boots. So I got another cab and I said I'm going anyway, I'll go to girl for said so I come up there was nobody there was an empty place and I've go up the hall and finally system on delay comes
They showed him a little note. I said I was in the bag. I couldn't help it, you know magic. So this is wait a minute and he went back and I really honestly didn't appreciate totally even to this day what this was Bob would then came out and he called the women now and so I was all alone with Baba and his women. He actually had gone back and whatever Retreat or whatever.
From what he had done while we were in the bank has called for a few and some were able to come into Shaw's at come and everybody whew, but I had missed being in the bank. So he regroups and came out with mayor and money and all the women and I had just a few minutes alone with Ava and that view of all that that I had at leaned down to embrace it have quite Sheen Obama is small you'll see
Sam and I'm taller so I had to lean a little and so I look right down into those eyes and I can always see those eyes of Father the light was just perfect so I could see exactly the color of his eyes. They were dark brown and they just the depth of that. Look. It's like that look is with me forever. My father it was in 62 Bob. We've been through these two accidents and he was older and all
Not the strange thing about Bob with oh no matter how old or sick or whatever.
What shows on film but in his presence there's some peculiar thing. That was physically I don't think it was a psychic stuff. He glowed so that his skin glowed it shows on the film wrinkled and old but the skin right brother. It's just the life that the energy that the love was so intense it was a physical youth in and health in his face. That was really
Not registering on the camera at all. This just added another thing about God being man, man. Thank God his body also had a peculiar feeling like you held his hand. It was like
It just wasn't like anybody's hand. It was sort of it had no Impressions is really what it is. It's just as like a baby's here. It's just so soft and pure and kiss.
Something really like a rose.
I got fixed it alone trip with something.
So I just want to give an impression of how it actually felt to be with father.
He had a tremendous stride and you know that you say and I'm not going into these reincarnation memories and stuff, but they even say in police work that you can tell a person I've tested this most easily by the way, they walk that if you had 10 people behind the screen just just there walk you can identify them and if walk that Bob ahead there's an incredible stride it was loaded.
It was so incredible that big tall guys could not keep up with a talent that we trailed him around in the center.
And the young tall men were always way ahead. They still can keep up with father. He almost floated and when I first saw Baba Wawa
Something did click in my head that I had seen him as Jesus that he had the same walk.
The same wall
And you know, I kind of had those little
Bell feelings that you know somebody and you do and you meet Bobby, you know, you know, if a people who never heard like you you've never heard of bomb until tonight. Okay, you meet Bob and you say I know you I know you it is like meeting a relative or somebody because he is your relative is the one in relative of us all.
And that's why you feel so so close to him know somewhere somehow you've shared the most intimate intimate life with him. I whether this is actually true in your karma that you spent 10 days with Jesus or something. It's also the fact and this again to me is why I feel Bob is guy and it is that mystical feeling that he is you it's not like some other even perfect Master. Let's say a
A positive something knowing everything despite Baba knows everything too. But he actually is that odd man that you really are that live your whole life. So, of course, he seems familiar, you know, he's your real identity and in some mystical moments he kind of ripped the veil and you know that and it's like I said that Split Second I had can never be taken away. I don't care.
No, well stood up and said Bob was like that. It doesn't mean I think you know, that's it. He's it and because I'm sure that that is the final gift that you realize who you really are about it says the whole creation is going to hurt them. So what is Baba do to help us today? That's a big problem as me.
And
I do go over my memories, but I also miss.
Experiencing Baba right now. There's like everybody because he is he has to be reached in here.
And to do that
It's hard sentence got all this Maya and emotions and all blocking a sense care. So how we unblock though since cares to reach Bob again. It was very nice to me him be with him physically to get cables and warm letters and all of that. But now I have to struggle just like everybody to also find Bob of right here and now and that means working on myself not paying too much attention to how
I mean they all have their problems but I've got to work on my problem and my problem is me and I think that is where it hurts because it's so much easier to get out there and say what everyone else is doing wrong. I don't find all that energy on finding.
The blocks and yourself--and this I took just recently a trip to Myrtle Beach. I was very much wanting to contact these women who had meant so much to me and are now way past. All of them are past 85 his Kitty had her 90th birthday and who's the most active of all as anything but running around a little golf cart. That's my last sight of her she waved. You're wonderful.
And of this offense, it looks somehow just Angelic nature this Fringe of silvery hair in these beautiful blue eyes and her body but she's just so so she's you know, incredible Margaret Crassus also very dear to me those three women were there and I really made it kind of pilgrimage to be there and I'll suppress the center where father for I'm epi.
And it was a wonderful thing to be with him again.
I'm feel. They're just Rock Solid dedication to the de I mean those lives are Symphony the privilege of being with Bob with so many years, but you could be both Bob and so many years and not learn either, you know, that's true too, but they have been just home down like these beautiful things. We saw it and gumption is beautiful pieces of the day polishing carved and translucent.
Just just beautiful souls, and I'm so happy. I saw them because you know, they are not too long for this world.
But I also that was a wonderful Bob of part of my trip but it also saw some family and went through some family things that just threw me right back into facing myself and my own limitations family don't appreciate that your follows bother at all. I know your worst point and they bring up all a nice nasty things you've done.
And you have to say yes, I was a shit idea. I'm sorry. I don't you're a hypocrite why get off this hypocritical stuff? Yeah, you know and so it was like a total opposite. I was just hoping about pulling the rug from you, you know, you think you're so wonderful and so spiritual and go see the Saints and Myrtle Beach bam, you know it do all the wrong.
Things you say the wrong things and that's what was very instructive very instructive and I like that bother, you know, it's like in this area of Duncan's it is in my new amazing Bob. He says I get you know, Baba ticked me off really this today that English were it's just I like that it's you know, he gets so he really likes being beaten around here better than being praised by her.
And I've sort of gotten to that point to you know, get the kick in the teeth. It's kind of nice. I really have to go. You can do it first one up here, but it's like we had a big session in our group last night and it's a really hot stuff flying around.
I'm sure you have those meetings to and at the end we have a thing now, we kind of evaluate the meeting one one person one minute for each person to say how they felt about this meeting whatever they want to say for one.
And everyone felt that it was good that we all spoke out our feelings some were very negative and some were very positive summer the summer that we had 13 people all very different and I just said I love it. You know, this is one of the best meetings we've had when we were really, you know, you know, unzip the girl and just as good and that's that's what being with Bobby.
Seeing that balance you just see and and the Mon Valley that have been with him and I think mostly pressure at the moment. I'm thinking of the women one with how they've learned to deal with the negative side of life in an honest way with himself and with Bob and I think that honesty I was just absolute honesty. You have to remember it goes from top to toe. It isn't just not cheating on your income tax, but it's emotional honesty. Anyway, I think I've reached ovary.
It's my time.
They have questions. They were supposed to have precious a little bit. Yeah.
A regular thing what? Yes gentlemen ask. Is it a regular thing that Baba visits Us in the subtle body now the red God speaks. I hope Ava told us to read it 10 times. He has a universal body universal mind. He has a mental body settled by it a gross body and about, you know any number of Shades. I'm sure of manifestation between and
What does
When he dropped that physical body, which is like a you know, an old pair of pajamas. He has all those antibodies and he can definitely visit you and I have seen him in that one of those forms.
And you know he's here because he can be here anytime regularly. I don't know. I don't think pin the Avatar right now. Anyway, yeah, I'm sure.
What About Bob assumed he went to sleep and makes it you know that I was sick my gift of my come up and I will come there yeah, I used to think of it he said I go back into my Divine sahaj samadhi I think is the right word or new accomplice of mine but you forget he's the Avatar he says also I maintain my connection with a creation
And his period of manifestation isn't over so that has a special meaning to you know, Bob is everything I think he's in his nirvikalpa samadhi and I think he's right here on some invisible chair here enjoying the whole show, you know, you cannot limit Avatar. It's like knowing everything. Yeah, there's some of those things where
And the Sava things God does absolutely everything by doing absolutely nothing, you know and all that kind of stuff. It's the torques your mind. Don't worry about God's hear a lot of different ways. Yeah what I was doing well by my Reckoning
We were always.
I think it's 11 hours behind them are always 11 hours ahead. So 12 noon ahead with the almost midnight by us the following this and day.
And I had a very strange experience at that time.
A lot of people did but I didn't understand that time.
But
I think hearing the news of the early crack of dawn. It was just about two o'clock in the morning when Marie should have called me and she said that Dawn Stevens call from London that Baba drop the body.
And that's an incredible telephone.
We couldn't speak that in a thong.
Then I hung up and I just sat there and I thought
Who should I call because that was the first call from London to Mercia Mercy for me. And then I thought of Margaret right away.
And in New York two is three hours ahead. I guess it was about 5:00 in the morning. Then I don't know something actually Phyllis. It's 5:00 in the morning. I think yes Margaret bothers Justified and then she said she's
Couldn't do a thing for for an hour or two, then she called Myrtle Beach. So it was interesting how it went around me.
Yeah, but as she I've thought about that many times that seeing Bob is so worn out physically even in 62.
That you couldn't really wish him to stay in that very painful worn-out body. So and also through my friend Adele is a nurse. We were hearing all sorts of private letters about bomb has physical condition deteriorated which other people didn't know so it wasn't exactly a shock. What was much more shock was to me. Anyway was the beginning of the new life.
We're Baba disbanded everything. We and said he might drop the body was no more ashram. We weren't depend on his Nasir. He was helpless and hopeless and all of that was tremendous emotional thing more than just dropping a physical body what that I'm speaking for myself.
Because I had met Bobby yet. I didn't know whether I would.
Any other questions?
Well now we'll show this movie. I'll explain a little bit about it. It was taken in 1952 after Bob has accident. You'll see him in the wheelchair with the cast on and with mayor and the other women manga lie, and it was taken in Switzerland. Yes. Oh the game. Yes. We have a little game here. You feel like playing a game anyway.
This game is called.
The warrior operation at first, I'll tell my worry operation story while you I want you all to write your worry the main worry you have.
Want to pass that test.
There's a warrior right your main worry here. No. No, I had a worry operation for Baba. I'll shorten it because you're running short of time. I had a worrying mind. I had terrible whirring mine. Always did it going round and round like this.
And then Baba, this is in 52. He created a kind of false situation on the beach. I was walking with Bob on the beach and suddenly he looked at the first experience. I had a father not being pleased with me it was gesturing and frowning at me and all that and it seemed that I should have led them back to the center.
But I've been talking to Mara and very absorbed talking to her and I didn't know at that time that nobody would move unless mayor mu so she and I were talking and we did we did pass the path back to the center. So Baba was sick. Why didn't you will be late? You should have shown where the path was like that Bob is displeased with me and my mind went like this and it was terrible and if I was frowning everything and I felt I don't know what
Done wrong, but I've done something wrong and I misled people on the path, you know, it's going for this company and then some leaves off and just if I could spend money interprets Phyllis stop worrying and I couldn't stop and then again, he gestured three times and my mind was going round and round, you know, just the worst possible and then he called me up to him and he took my riff the left hand.
Left wrist with his rifle I felt this energy go up and suddenly all blanked out and I couldn't remember a thing. I was happy. I wasn't worried and I just I couldn't even remember it till the end of the day. I was trying to tell it to somebody what happened. And since that time, I don't work. I don't really worry the way I ever did this one, you know where you wake really a bad mental.
Condition. That was a very bad habit, probably 1015 lives old or something. So I call it my worry operation.
So we're having a worry operation. I want you to eat right if you're worried here, whatever it is. Everybody has one.
At least there anybody here not worry worry about your Warrior.
But is an age-old have it probably says you worry so much that gets to be a habit. You don't even know what you're worried about anymore. And if you take the worry away from somebody, I know you've gone through this they have another worried right away. It's like a dog with a bone. You can't take the bone away or they have to get another bone, you know, so you cure one crop and I mean you have another one and another one another one and this is our occupation.
I have a worry.
And it's it uses up so much energy that you could it's not creative. It never solves a problem. It destroys that Poise that Baba wants spiritual poise.
And so Bob is conscious that you know the most famous thing about it said don't worry be happy. So, but I had to get rid of the worry that's big thing.
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Reminenses - Printable Transcript
New Life
Hu Humor
Glimpses
On Women
Dreams
Perfumed Ocean
Reminenses
The Other Side
Jesus of Nazareth
Dhuni
Meher Baba on Work
Meher Baba Connection
Seven Secrets
Mysticism
Meher Baba's Instruction on canvas.
Wheels of Involution
Meher Baba Radio Hour
The Beyond Beyond God Manifesting within Illusion